u/Itchy-Window-9893

I'm looking for a girl who is:
\\\\- very strong and stable in her personality
\\\\- self-aware narcissistic (in a healthy way)
\\\\- single
\\\\- in control
\\\\- able to translate my confused thoughts

\\\\- cultured or genuinely interested in learning
\\\\- realistic but has imagination
Mentally ill like
\\\\- sees herself as a challenge, not a problem
\\\\- has tenderness beneath the tough exterior
\\\\- weird like me and not afraid to be different

I'm looking for a girl who is:
\\\\- very strong and stable in her personality
\\\\- self-aware narcissistic (in a healthy way)
\\\\- single
\\\\- in control
\\\\- able to translate my confused thoughts

\\\\- cultured or genuinely interested in learning
\\\\- realistic but has imagination
Mentally ill like
\\\\- sees herself as a challenge, not a problem
\\\\- has tenderness beneath the tough exterior
\\\\- weird like me and not afraid to be different

I'm looking for a girl who is:
\\\\- very strong and stable in her personality
\\\\- self-aware narcissistic (in a healthy way)
\\\\- single
\\\\- in control
\\\\- able to translate my confused thoughts

\\\\- cultured or genuinely interested in learning
\\\\- realistic but has imagination
Mentally ill like
\\\\- sees herself as a challenge, not a problem
\\\\- has tenderness beneath the tough exterior
\\\\- weird like me and not afraid to be different

I'm looking for a girl who is:
\\- very strong and stable in her personality
\\- self-aware narcissistic (in a healthy way)
\\- single
\\- in control
\\- able to translate my confused thoughts

\\- cultured or genuinely interested in learning
\\- realistic but has imagination
Mentally ill like
\\- sees herself as a challenge, not a problem
\\- has tenderness beneath the tough exterior
\\- weird like me and not afraid to be different

وبدور على بنت تكون:
\- شخصيتها قوية جداً وثابتة
\- نرجسية واعية (بحدود صحية)
\- سنجل
\- ومسيطرة
\- قادرة تترجم أفكاري المشوشة

\- مثقفة أو عندها رغبة حقيقية في التعلم
\- واقعية لكن عندها خيال
مريضة نفسية زى
\- شايفة نفسها تحدي مش مشكلة
\- عندها حنية تحت القشرة الصلبة
\- غريبة زيّي ومش خايفة تكون مختلفة

It’s my birthday today, and I’ve never felt this alone

I don’t even know how to start this. Today is my birthday, and for the first time in my life, I’m spending it without my brother, my older brother, and my mom. All three of them are gone now.

I keep waiting for it to feel real. Every year they were the first people to wish me happy birthday. This year there’s just… silence. No calls, no messages, nothing.

I’m not really looking for advice, I just needed to put this somewhere. If you’ve lost multiple people close to you and somehow kept going, I’d genuinely like to hear how you’re managing. Right now it just feels like a part of me is missing and nothing is going to fill that space again.

Thanks for reading if you made it this far.

I don’t even know how to start this. Today is my birthday, and for the first time in my life, I’m spending it without my brother, my older brother, and my mom. All three of them are gone now.
I keep waiting for it to feel real. Every year they were the first people to wish me happy birthday. This year there’s just… silence. No calls, no messages, nothing.
I’m not really looking for advice, I just needed to put this somewhere. If you’ve lost multiple people close to you and somehow kept going, I’d genuinely like to hear how you’re managing. Right now it just feels like a part of me is missing and nothing is going to fill that space again.
Thanks for reading if you made it this far.