u/JYPapiWithThePhattie

18NB in college

i want to get help after i attempted yesterday but i’m too scared to tell someone because i don’t want my mum and family finding out

i only just started using reddit frequently recently despite having an account for a while so idk how things work. but i swear there used to be a subreddit called r/kpopvents, or something along those lines? was it deleted?

would you say that they’re helpful? i feel like the 1 on 1 chats with counsellors i’ve had so far haven’t been very helpful.

i guess years of isolation and bottling up my feelings is finally catching up. i’m tired of crying every night with no one to go to.

it’s my 18th birthday in a week. i have about 5 hours on the ice. barely anything, i’m very aware it’s far too early to think about competing — just like how i’m aware there’s no way i’m going to the olympics. so once i get better realistically what’s the highest level i can compete at since i started at this age? national competitions?