u/JYPapiWithThePhattie

Especially when you have poor social skills and have never really talked about your feelings verbally before…

I hate it. I love them but I hate it. I wish I could just be a fan normally :( And the worst part is I don’t have anyone to talk to about it because I’m scared of being judged. I try to avoid stuff with them in it to get them off my mind but it only worked for a couple of days. I’m pretty lonely so they’re my only escape from reality atp

i saw her a while ago on a music show video and i think it was a lesser known girl group, she had long straight hair! i know this description bad i’m not good with words

Being a human is so hard

18NB in college

i want to get help after i attempted yesterday but i’m too scared to tell someone because i don’t want my mum and family finding out

i only just started using reddit frequently recently despite having an account for a while so idk how things work. but i swear there used to be a subreddit called r/kpopvents, or something along those lines? was it deleted?

would you say that they’re helpful? i feel like the 1 on 1 chats with counsellors i’ve had so far haven’t been very helpful.

i guess years of isolation and bottling up my feelings is finally catching up. i’m tired of crying every night with no one to go to.

it’s my 18th birthday in a week. i have about 5 hours on the ice. barely anything, i’m very aware it’s far too early to think about competing — just like how i’m aware there’s no way i’m going to the olympics. so once i get better realistically what’s the highest level i can compete at since i started at this age? national competitions?