u/JakeGyllenHaalz

i’ve been suffering from panic attacks and severe stress for the past 2 weeks over things that have been happening between me and my boyfriend for over the last 6 months. everytime something happens, a big argument it usually gets fixed but this it has stretched to two weeks now. he’s in a place where he’s busy all the time and im in my room rotting with no purpose or activities which is making everything worse. yesterday i tried to talk to him about what was going on but things got worse and i had to apologise instead of him. he pretends like he’s concerned but hardly tries to actually help. at this point im fully aware i should leave but i just can’t seem to. it feels like im getting suffocated everytime i think of leaving him.

i don’t have a great social life neither do i have many friends or hobbies to engage in. ive shared all this before with my friends and they’ve already given me advices and atp it feels embarrassing to go back to them with the same issues.

ive been accepting the fact that he’s lost feelings for me as he keeps doing the same things that bother me. and yet i can’t leave. i get sudden panic attacks and then i need him the most but he seems to be least concerned. ive been losing so much hair in the last two weeks so have i lost my mood for doing anything. and i genuinely think there’s no solution to this.

yeah that’s it. i live in cumilla for my education and am interested in learning tennis. are there any good place to learn it there?

I have a collection of coins that I collected until i was like 10 but truly had no purpose in it. And they were all from my family members so didn’t really have to put much effort into it. I also had a huge stamp collection that i lost over the years due to lack of storing properly. Also lost some of my favourite coins i don’t really know how. So people that are really into it, how do you store it? Do you ever trade them because i have multiple copies of same ones. Where do i find people to trade with?

edit: also how do i determine the pricing?

I have been dating this guy for the past 2 years and everything was beyond just fine for the first one yeat until he moved to another city(mind you i had also moved to a different city just 3 months prior). He started going to a big university with a complete different environment and as they say everyone changes once they move to that city and that uni. And me being a med student, moved to a not-so-big city. I am the shy introverted one with probably close to zero male interactions in my institution( hasn’t been many circumstances where i had to) and then there he is making female friends and even flirting with one. Ive checked his phone a few times now and everytime i found him texting girls without setting any boundaries since i was never okay with any of that. Everytime id think it would stop but it never did. Anytime i had a problem with any of the interactions he’d just say that they know about the fact that he has a gf which i dont think fixes anything. Recently he went to the residential semester and the emotional rollercoaster
that it put me through is insane. He became the coach of the girls team which hurt me initially but then i can’t really stop him neither should i. but then i see him leaning into girls in pictures when he knows it would hurt me, posting and hanging out with the one girl i had problems with specifically. All this kept happening and i had to keep adjusting to it as it was a complete new experience for me but it kept bothering me. And then it reached a point when i felt that there’s no way this is going to keep happening and takianything he was doing and kept bringing up other things he had done for me as an excuse. And we broke up. But a day went and it got unbearable to me like i couldn’t breathe so i texted him. Also we had been through this before like breaking up but then again getting back within like 2/3 days but this time he was adamant. And i had an exam coming up and i couldn’t risk failing that exam and i felt like i would if i didn’t rekindle things. Everytime things would get fixed but this one time he won’t stay. I cried and i begged but he wouldn’t soften. He kept being rude even though im here crying and begging. He said stuff like that i should forget about a marriage he doesn’t even want to keep the relationship.

And one of the reasons why he was so mad was that i texted one of his female friends and asked if she thought he had girl issues. And i had actually done that before, texting his friend part. He also said that i had put him down in front of his sister and cousin when i shared the screenshots of his texts with other girls but then again why do something in the first place that you’re ashamed to share with your family?

He also stopped putting a lot of the efforts he put initially and giving me time. Honestly i would probably have no problem since the place he is in has so many activities to keep you engaged and its said to a once in a lifetime experience and he’s trying to get the best out of it. But with these other issues i can’t help but think about this one too.

And the way i am the one that had to fix all the arguments for the past 2/3 months because he thinks i argue for no reason and just annoy him and don’t let him enjoy hurts me to the core. I thought one thing you had to care about in a relationship was what was hurting your partner. And i wouldn’t have much problem with female friendships and hanging out unless i hadn’t seen how he texted them. He broke my trust multiple times yet he’s like "you don’t trust me, you keep doubting me"

I stopped eating. Not on purpose but cried so much that i had no energy left to get up and eat. I put everything aside even studies just to talk to him but he never cared about any of these.

He stayed after i begged that night but things certainly haven’t been the same. He’s on a break and that’s probably why he’s being nice and acting like nothing happened the other night.

Now i feel like there’s no way id want a future with a guy like this but i can’t seem to be able to detach no matter what. I really need to get over this because there’s no way someone’s life can be like this. What do i do in this situation?

i’ve always been a shy,introverted person. i don’t have many friends but only the ones that truly matter. recently going through a heartbreak and don’t know how to deal with it. my boyfriend’s the type to be free with everyone and especially the opposite gender(beyond just free) which was something neither of us were okay with in the beginning of the relationship. and it was going this way until we both moved out of our city for uni. he goes to a renowned private uni in dhaka and im a public med student in a different city. ever since he moved out there has been so many issues around the same topic but he never changed and never cared how much it affected me. so wanna get rid of all that sufferings for now but honestly don’t think it will be easy if i can’t find people to talk to. doesn’t need to be romantic but maybe making friends would do. never thought id have to face a day like this but i can’t take all the constant thoughts about him. where do i find people to talk to or how do i start? really don’t like most of the people from my institution so makes me feel like i have really no way at this point but some advice would work.