u/Jeanpaul02

That's basically the post. Jekhanei jai sudhu sales r bpo.

Single handedly dragging the awnidra community now

Why do women make you feel like you're on top of the world and the next moment you're nothing?

Was dating and a girl who seemed sweet but there were some red flags and ignored. She would shut down at the first sign of conflict, absolutely can't handle arguments, avoids the best she can and make me overthink knowing damn well I'm an anxious person and then come back later like nothing happened. I tried to get her to communicate so many times. Almost felt like babysitting her. Everytime something would happen I'd have to read her mind and kind of take out information. Keep my problems aside and try to see things from her perspective invalidating my feelings over and over again.

I go through a bunch of health issues too and I live with a toxic family. So it's already pretty hard. And she knew about it too. But every time I told her about my problems it's like she didn't know how to react. Just casually brushed it off.

Couple of times she randomly tried to block me on social media and leave and my sorry ass had to drag her back and make it up to her even though it was all her fault. She said "You deserve better" and bs like that.

Long story short, as usual she was being immature about something. I said, since we are in this together, introduce me to your parents or give me their number so that I can get you some help cos this amount of insecurity and avoidant behavior isn't normal at this age. As usual she said "ok ok hm" and blocked me everywhere no questions asked. I wouldn't have forced her either way. She could just deny. But yeah, made me feel like on top of the world and then destroyed me in seconds like I meant nothing.

How are women so okay with this? Why is this so normalised? The night was horrible and I had bad anxiety attacks and chest pain and couldn't sleep one bit. And she's probably fine. So any tips on putting this behind me and moving on?

Tldr: Broke up, she's emotionally immature, I'm hurt asf.

I've been reading up on the works of Marcus Aurelias, Seneca, watching a bunch of YouTube videos, reading articles, and even have been practicing to apply these ideas in real life. And I did feel like I had made significant progress in terms of dealing with my daily life problems and problematic people without having a meltdown.

But long story short, since last night I've been with some really bad stomach pain. Dull and throbbing, but intensifies sometimes. I took whatever meds I had, i called my doctor and he asked me not to worry too much, I live alone and my family is not helpful in any way. They'd simply find a way to blame me for it instead of providing any medical support or even emotional support.

The depression sunk in, my anxiety peaked, the loneliness of not having to talk to anyone since I don't have much friends. I do, but none that can get on call empathize with the situation at hand. I made it out but it was tough. I did try to remind myself that I shouldn't make the physical pain worse but creating a narrative in my mind and that I should stay present and not overthink, I even looked up stuff but nothing really helped. Everything I built up to until now, emotionally, fell apart, so eventually I resorted to sleeping pills and pass out.

So genuinely asking, fellow stoics who might have found themselves in such dire circumstances, what would you do and how would you get through it?