I'm losing my bird which I consider my best friend and baby .. I'm so burnt out and sad
I'm 21F had my Baby female cockatiel Lucky for a year and a half.
My parents bought her after my old bird died in an accident.
for backstory I study in an online college from home , my parents go to work and my siblings go to school and college .. so all I have is Lucky with me ..
I'm soooo in love with her , she's my best friend , my daughter , my little baby, my everything ..
she got sick so suddenly yesterday morning and in kess than 3 hours she became in the worst state ever .. I took her to the vet twice yesterday and took her again today and he gave her a shot and said it's our lasy chance to save her
I'm slowly losing my mind .. I didn't eat or sleep properly I was up all night taking care of her
I'm exhausted now .. mentally and physically .. I've done all I can do but still I can't let go ..
my body feels like shutting down .. I'm dizzy , I have headache , my stomach is in agony ,, my chest is tightm I'm feeling like losing consciousness.
multiple time I almost did during writing this post
I'm so scared .. scared I might wake up without her .. that I'll be all alone with all memories that'll cut deep in my heart .. I'm soooooo scared
I can't let her go .. she's my pure love .. the only one loving me without any conditions
my mom said she won't buy another bird cause she's done with pain of loss
my body is so tired it's shaking , my mind is racing with thoughts Killing me slowly .. I'm mentally soooo tired I cried my eyes , mind and soul out all day
I tried everything and i know that .. I did what I could .. but I'm not ready to lose her.