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I’ve been meditating for some time now I’d say 4-6 months and recently I’ve been setting intentions while I meditate, more so questions. And I’ve also been practicing a lot of self inquiry for over a year now so I’ve gotten very good at being able to tell my egos methods, so much so to the point where even if I’m drifting of to sleep or even in sleep I’ll know if the ego is trying to send a certain thought (generally intrusive) my awareness tends to catch it very quickly. I then acknowledge what it is and let the thought/ emotion pass without any force.

But to get back on point, for the past two days I’ve been having conversations with what I’m assuming is my higher self when I meditate. It seems to have an answer to all my questions. And even when my ego tries to throw an intrusive thought into the conversation it catches it or points it out for me, but also when it doesn’t do that and the conversation was very normal and there wasn’t any ego interference and the answers seemed detailed, yet not entirely specific either. My nervous system wasn’t reacting and I felt calm and not worried. The night before I felt excited and full of energy. Even if occasional anxiety popped up from the ego trying to poke in.

There was a desire I was feeling guilty for having but, my higher self(?) was reassuring me to not feel guilty for having it, and how it won’t effect the areas or the people in my life that I thought it would. And it would give me answer that were detailed enough to make sense but not super detailed either.

Generally whenever I’m in a situation like this i have some give away that I can tell are ego, like when certain dates come to mind saying things will happen in that day, I generally assume it’s ego, which oddly enough things do end up happening in relation to what the date came up for either on that day or a little before or after but not exactly what the prediction was but I digress, anything that creates fear, anxiety, or lack, I assume is ego.

This time it didn’t feel like ego but I don’t know for sure.

i was just meditating a few minutes ago, and it was all normal at first I saw a bunch of random visuals and eventually I saw a black orb it was small and it would appear I would focus on it and then it would momentarily disappear into the amalgamation of random visuals appearing in my awareness.

But at some point it kept on appearing and I focused on it more intensely, I kept looking at it and at some point the black ball disappeared and what looked like a giant eye appeared within me, it was gigantic like I couldn’t even fathom how large it was, it felt like I wasn’t looking at an eye but rather inside it? But as I was inside of this eye I could feel it looking at me, it was moving closer and closer and I could feel this energy building up from the bottom of my body and riding upward it was like a creeping pressure if I remember correctly it stopped at my upper chest.

It felt so unnatural, as if I was actually trapped, as the pressure was building. I don’t think I was afraid of it, but I just couldn’t fathom its existence. As all this was happening I noticed my body physically reacting my eyes were forcing themselves closed, my face was scrunching up, and then as this all happened the energy suddenly disappeared. And then my awareness was completely empty.

Through out it I could hear myself thinking “is that god, am I looking at god right now, I had this knowing that this experience would change me. Not that it was a strong feeling or anything but I just knew.

What would you call this experience? It’s my first time ever seeing this. I’ve never felt any sort of energy like what I had felt at that moment that pressure it was overwhelming slightly frightening but maybe not fear. Now that I think about it I think I had forgotten I was even in the body even though I was aware of the energy rising through me.

Currently I don’t feel much different than I did before but this all happened within 30 minutes. Even just thinking about evokes some sort of feeling in my core or stomach.

What did I just experience?

I’ve been meditating for roughly 4-5 months now, I’ve gotten good at just being still and watching my thoughts flow, and letting the visuals flow and eventually I reach a state of stillness where I feel very calm and just present within, even if the mental activity is happening I’m not fully aware of what the details of it are. It’s old like sleeping but being completely aware and unaware of anything else if that makes sense? I hope I’m describing that correctly.

There have been a few times I’ve tried to do 3rd eye meditations where you focus between your awareness around the where your 3rd eye would be, but I feel like I’m to aware of my eyes and cannot bring myself to focus on that spot, my eyes shift around, visuals appear everywhere but the center or where I should be focusing. I try to focus with my eyes but it ends up straining them and it feels as if my vision wants to pierce through my eyelids, and they wanna open. I just can’t seem to get the focus on the 3rd eye.

I know that I’m able to bring my awareness to other parts of my body like for example every time I meditate my awareness is focused in middle of the upper chest since that’s what feels the most natural to me and it seems that’s where my energy is always located. When I bring my awareness there it’s easy to get into a meditative state, but just not my third eye unless I put my finger where I want it to focus but even that ends up being tiring after like 2-3 minutes.

What I will say is that I momentarily saw an image of me looking at my own forehead and there was an eye in the middle and as soon as that visual happened it felt like I was forced into a different state or feeling for a few seconds. It felt deeper like I was dropped into an odd alertness and calmness it was really hard to describe.