u/Jobdefinesme

I’m waiting on a confirmation of what my MRI shows which is reported as erosion of the SI joints and mild inflammation. I’m feeling very discouraged and feel like my rheumatologist might not think this is serious. I got my MRI scan results six weeks ago and only getting a call to review this coming Monday. I’m trying the stay optimistic but I break down and cry. I’m 40 years old, dealing with the pain every day. It’s gotten to the point where I can’t garden, paint, cross stitch, get my kids ready for daycare because my hands and wrists don’t allow me to move like I once did. It causes so much pain. I can’t even sit to garden and scoot over because my knees sometimes will turn from a dull ache to a sharp pain that makes me scream out loud. I’m approaching week 6 of Bimzelx and it’s like a fart in the wind. How do you manage to do the things that help your mental health and that you love? I need to keep moving and living life but it’s really getting hard to not creep further into depression.

I just received my first dose and put it in the fridge right away. I was going to take it today because I want to try and relieve this pain as soon as possible but the weekend is filled with in-laws visiting. It was causing me so much anxiety surrounding being with people who spit when they talk, are huggers, and look down on people who wear masks. I also want to have time to myself so I can get through whatever side effects will come my way. So I’m delaying my first dose until Monday night. I’ve been in a three week sever PsA flare up and it’s hard to not resent the fact that I have to delay taking this. To be clear, the anxiety surrounding seeing the extended in-laws would always be there but this layer of taking Bimzelx for the first time had me wanting to hide in my room for the weekend and avoid everyone and everything.