This doesn’t seem fun …
Hi everyone. Wanted some feedback. Basic question: when does playing chess become fun? Am I ever going to love just playing? Is it always going to just be a source of stress? With lingering anxiety after a session?
Some background. I have been playing on and off for years. Highest rapid ranking on chess.com was 1100. It was a grind, and I realized that after getting to 1000 I was really no happier than when I was 700. I will never be great. I realize that. But will it ever be like ‘I have arrived’ or ‘ok, I am content.’? I am coming to the hard conclusion that perhaps there is no end in sight and i don’t know how to make peace with that. Is 1200, or 1300 going to make it all great? The grind is not necessarily worth just hanging on to a 1000 rating. I don’t know. Problem is, I am an obsessive person and have a part of me that is drawn to the highs and lows of play. But it’s not all that fun.
Would like some input from others and see if this is a common feeling and maybe some things that helped or whatever.
Thanks!