(Rant) I just finished my first day at my first office job. I feel weird!
Hey all, to clear all confusion - for the last 9 years, up untill last Friday, I've worked construction, warehouse and retail and random part-time jobs. I've been working ever since I turned 17 with some gaps for studying and university. Every single job I had so far was somewhat shitty - either the working hours, or the pay, or the fact that I'm too tired to even get out of my car when I get home and every free minute I have I spent just resting my body. 2 months ago I applied for an office-based position in a local company that basically offers the complete opposite - Monday to Friday, fixed hours, home-office for a few days of the month, freedom to choose when I have lunch or take a smoke break or even go to the bathroom. The only thing they care is that the job is done by the end of the day - everything else is entirely up to you. Of course there's some corporate stuff involved that are still extremely new and unknown to me but I'll probably get used to that.
What was totally frightening for me was the fact that for the first time ever I took a proper lunch break, didn't have to check in with anyone, didn't have to sign in a book the moment I stopped working and went to have lunch, time 30 minutes, and sign in the same book again on the dot.... I took a whole freaking hour, if not even more, and I just... sat on a bench in a nearby park, had my lunch in peace, smoked a few cigarettes, talked on the phone and didn't have to check my watch anxiously every 2 or 3 minutes. At the exact 30 minute mark my arms and legs started shaking almost uncontrollably from the thought that I was gonna get in trouble for not being as punctual as I'm used to be. I know for some of you that's the norm but to me... that's something new... the other things is that for the first time in my life I actually have energy left at the end of day and I can actually do some of the things that I wanna do and love doing. And my coworkers in my department have been great - I didn't actually see any of the hypocrisy and two-faced-ness that I'm used to seeing in people working an office job. For the first time in my life I actually don't dread going to work tomorrow.... I'm confused... what's going on?!
Don't get me wrong - I'm definitely not a huge fan of meetings, endless emails, being stuck on a desk or even hushing my voice because it's an open space office.
TL:DR - First "normal" job in my life and the freedom feels weird. The corporate stuff too...