I slept with my long cousin
I’m 28M, I work for the government, Last week I attended my cousin’s wedding. She’s my mausi’s daughter. During the wedding, I met her “sister” technically, she’s my mausa’s brother’s daughter. She’s 24F and in college.
I had met her a few times when we were kids, but we were never close. This time was completely different.
Throughout the wedding, we started talking more and somehow just instantly clicked. We realized we have an almost ridiculous amount in common. Same interests, similar way of thinking, similar sense of humor. The chemistry was honestly unreal.
We started spending a lot of time together. We played CODM, watched TV, talked about our lives and even randomly talked about what we wanted from the future. We would sit together and just talk for hours.
Our families were completely occupied with the wedding, so nobody really noticed how close we were becoming.
Then one day, we kissed.
After that, things became different between us. Whenever we were alone, we'd hold hands and sometimes kiss. Neither of us really planned for anything to happen. It just happened. Then the wedding was over. And suddenly we had to go back to our normal lives.
Both of us were honestly devastated about having to be apart. She eventually arranged to stay at her friend's place and asked me to come meet her there. I told my family I was going out to roam around the city and went to meet her.
We ended up sleeping together in her friend's room.
It was the first time for both of us. It wasn't some perfect romantic movie scene. We were nervous and honestly didn't really know what we were doing. But emotionally, it felt very special. I think part of it was because we knew we were going to miss each other.
We spent some time together, exchanged gifts, and then I came home.
And now I don't know what the hell I'm supposed to do.
I don't necessarily regret what happened, but I also don't feel completely okay about it. I've never felt this kind of chemistry with anyone before. She's genuinely sweet, kind, funny and really cute. I care about her a lot.
She keeps telling me she loves me.
I haven't been able to say it back.
Not because I don't care about her. I just genuinely don't know what I'm feeling right now.
The family part is what scares me the most.
Technically, she's my mausa's brother's daughter. We're not blood-related, but we met through our family and everyone would probably see us as some kind of distant cousins.
So now I'm stuck wondering:
Is this actually incest?
Did I completely screw up by sleeping with her?
And if this isn't incest, does that mean there's actually a possibility of having a normal relationship with her?
I have no idea how either of our families would react if they ever found out.
The worst part is that I can't stop thinking about her. I genuinely miss her already, and I don't know whether I should pursue this relationship or distance myself before we both get even more attached....
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