Just went through a bad “breakup”. Horrible words were said that I believed i meant in moment. We both said we hated eachother and never wanna see eachother again. Amoungst other things. Now looking back I wonder… I don’t necessarily want relationship back just wondering if u ever were able to speak calmly later on.
Just went through a bad “breakup”. Horrible words were said that I believed i meant in moment. We both said we hated eachother and never wanna see eachother again. Amoungst other things. Now looking back I wonder… I don’t necessarily want relationship back just wondering if u ever were able to speak calmly later on. I’d like to hear some other peoples stories. Thanks .
the last 7 months have been horrible. I felt him slipping away and that put me into a spiral of anxiety and depression. We would get into fights where I would spam call messages and texts (20+) calls and then he would snap at me and say mean things and then I would apologize and beg for him back. And that repeated until yesterday he blocked on all platforms. I’ve never been the clingy annoying spamming anxious type . Usually when I talk to a guy I’m more level headed. This situation changed me.
I love him and care for him but I know in my heart I wasn’t okay with the situation and I developed anxiety so bad because whenever he wasn’t with me I started going insane. He was 12 years older than me and we met at the gym. I met him when I was 23 and I had never had a boyfriend since highschool. At one point i actually did get pregnant and took the pill. I’ve never been pregnant before . He doesn’t know that. I deeply bonded to him in the wrong way. The way I acted wasn’t right and instead of walking away, I created a horrible ending for myself. He said it was sad and I was a pathetic looser and he doesn’t want to be with me because I’m annoying and to fuck off.He can’t remember the last time he wanted to spend time with me. But then when I saw him 3 days prior we got food and he was very affectionate and sweet and said he needs time and he does love me but he feels bad because his life isn’t set up right, he needs to grind now and evaluate his life and reflect once he is in a better position.
My spamming pushed him away, but also he was still Involved with her anyway - to what degree idk. It hurts my heart this whole situation what he did to me and what I did to myself. I know he said those things out of anger because of the continuous spamming but it hurts my heart and maybe that’s how he truly feels . This situation ruined my reputation. Multiple d-days. I never got in any drama or anything before this. Now he turned on me and his babymama/partner and their friends probably laughing. I suppose I deserve it lol.
I’ve been talking MM (not married but lives with baby mama) he is 10 years older than me. There’s been a couple of D-days. He says he needs time and he’s going through it financially because his parents lost their house and he’s now supporting them and everything with her is financial. In the mean time, her friends have started to DM me about not saying mentioning her when baby mama asked me who was at a dinner. And that babymama is family and stay away from someone with a family. like cussing me out but those girls won’t say shjt to him or give him flack. He’s not married and he said he will never get married to her. The babymama is puffing her chest out and peacocking and won’t leave but wants to fight me and press me. Maybe she needs to justify the fact that she’s struggling with him financially. Anyway it got to point her ghetto friend dm’d me. I love this guy but I don’t want to be with him rn and I told him that. I don’t wanna inherit her issues. She’s his age and contributes and pays bills. If I’m gonna be with someone 10years older I expect to not pay a lot of bills. The only thing is I still like talking to him. It’s hard.