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If I make dua and plead/beg/cry my heart out during tahajjud that Allah helps me forget a bad memory of a major sin I committed as the memory of this sin is causing me great pain, is it possible Allah could wipe this memory from my mind? I will even delete any traces of evidence in regard to the sin. I just want to be free of this as reminders of my sin are all around me and I cannot stop thinking about it. So my question is: can Allah wipe a memory? Is this possible?

If I make dua during tahajjud that Allah helps me forget a bad memory of a major sin I committed as the memory of this sin is causing me great pain, is it possible Allah could wipe this memory from my mind? I will even delete any traces of evidence in regard to the sin. I just want to be free of this as reminders of my sin are all around me and I cannot stop thinking about it. So my question is: can Allah wipe a memory? Is this possible?

I’m going to be extremely blunt because I’m trying to find out if what I want is actually possible or if these therapists are overselling things.
I’m a 20 year old guy and my entire life I’ve considered myself straight. I’ve only ever wanted relationships with women, fallen for women, pictured marriage with a woman, etc. Sexually too.
That being said, over the years I did have curiosity through porn and fantasies involving men/trans content sometimes, but I never actually did anything with a guy in real life before this. It stayed in the realm of fantasy and curiosity.
A few weeks ago, I impulsively drove to a sauna near me that’s known for gay hookups. Even on the drive there I kept internally telling myself “don’t do this,” “turn around,” “leave,” etc. I genuinely did not feel mentally grounded. It felt like I was on autopilot and detached from myself.
I walked around for a while telling myself I wasn’t actually going to do anything and then eventually ended up giving another guy oral sex. The second it was over I immediately felt overwhelming panic, shame, disgust, regret, and emotional shock. I left feeling like I had just done something completely out of character that I never actually wanted in reality.
Ever since then my brain has basically broken.
I replay the memory constantly from the second I wake up until I fall asleep. I connect random things in daily life back to it. I look at myself differently. I obsessively analyze what it “means.” I feel disconnected from myself and emotionally trapped inside the memory. It genuinely feels like my nervous system froze around the event and can’t move on from it.
The weird thing is I don’t even want to repeat it. If anything the experience itself made me realize I did not actually want that life or reality. But my brain keeps obsessing over the fact it happened at all.
So now I’ve been researching hypnosis, EMDR, and especially memory reconsolidation because I honestly do not just want coping skills. What I want is to weaken and alter the memory to the point where emotionally it stops feeling like my reality.
I’ve already spoken to multiple hypnotherapists and some of them have told me that while you cannot literally erase factual memory, it may be possible to alter the subconscious/emotional experience of it so deeply that it feels distant, unreal, dreamlike, foggy, detached, or emotionally replaced by an alternate version of events.
One therapist literally described it as creating a “parallel reality” internally where my brain emotionally experiences the outcome as me turning around, leaving, going home, etc instead of actually going through with it.
That is honestly what I want. I want the original memory weakened enough that it no longer feels emotionally real, dominant, or defining in my mind.
So I’m asking people who actually understand hypnosis and reconsolidation:

Is this genuinely possible to some extent?

Can memories actually become emotionally detached
enough that they stop feeling personally real?

Has anyone experienced something like this successfully?

Or are these therapists selling fantasy?

I’m going to be completely blunt because I’m specifically trying to find out whether NLP can help me mentally/emotionally alter the way I experience a memory to the point where it no longer feels like the “real” version of events in my head anymore.
A few weeks ago I had an impulsive sexual experience with another guy that immediately caused extreme shame, panic, disgust, regret, and emotional shock afterward. I’m a 20 year old guy and I’ve always considered myself straight, only wanted women romantically and sexually, pictured marriage with a woman, etc. I had curiosity/fantasy through porn before but never acted on anything in real life until this happened.
Even while driving there and walking around I kept internally telling myself not to do it and to leave. It felt like I was mentally detached and on autopilot. I ended up giving another guy oral sex and the second it was over it felt like my brain completely shattered.
Ever since then I replay the memory nonstop every day. I connect random things around me back to it, obsessively analyze what it means, and feel emotionally trapped inside the fact it happened at all. It feels like my nervous system froze around the event and cannot move on from it.
What I’m honestly looking for is not “acceptance” or coping skills. I want to know whether NLP can actually alter the subconscious/emotional representation of the memory enough that my brain emotionally stops treating the original version of events as the dominant reality anymore.
Basically: can NLP make it feel internally more like “I turned around and left” instead of “I actually went through with it”?
I’ve read about submodality work, timeline therapy, dissociation techniques, memory reframing, etc and some practitioners make it sound like the brain can completely change how a memory feels, almost to the point where it becomes dreamlike, distant, emotionally unreal, or disconnected from your sense of self.
That is honestly what I want. I want the emotional experience of the memory weakened and altered enough that it no longer feels psychologically real, active, or identity-defining in my mind.
So I’m asking people who actually understand NLP:
Is that genuinely possible to some extent?
Can NLP make a memory stop feeling emotionally “real” or dominant?
Can it weaken obsessive replay and intrusive associations?
Has anyone actually experienced this level of change from NLP work?
Or are NLP practitioners overselling what these techniques can do?
I know objective reality itself does not literally change. I’m asking whether the subconscious/emotional experience of reality can be changed enough that my brain stops emotionally experiencing the original memory the same way anymore.

I’m trying to get honest answers from people experienced with EMDR because I’m at a point where a memory feels completely stuck in my nervous system and I’m desperately trying to understand what EMDR can realistically do.
I’m a 20 year old guy and my entire life I’ve considered myself straight. I’ve only ever wanted relationships with women, pictured marriage with women, etc. I did have some sexual curiosity/fantasies through porn involving men/trans content over the years, but I never acted on anything in real life before this.
A few weeks ago, I impulsively drove to a sauna near me that’s known for gay hookups. Even on the drive there and while walking around, I kept internally telling myself not to do anything and to leave. It honestly felt like I was mentally detached and on autopilot.
Eventually I ended up giving another guy oral sex. The second it was over I immediately felt overwhelming panic, shame, disgust, regret, and emotional shock. I left feeling like I had just crossed a line that completely shattered my sense of self.
Ever since then my brain has been obsessively replaying the memory nonstop. I connect random things in daily life back to it. I analyze it constantly. I feel trapped inside the memory emotionally. It honestly feels less like “regret” and more like my nervous system got frozen around the event and can’t process it.
The weird thing is I don’t even want to repeat the experience. If anything, it made me realize I did not actually want that reality in real life. But the fact it happened at all keeps mentally crushing me.
What I’m trying to understand is this: can EMDR actually change the way a memory is emotionally stored enough that it stops feeling active, dominant, and psychologically “real” all the time?
I know EMDR doesn’t literally erase memories. I understand that. But can it:
make a memory feel emotionally distant or detached?
stop the obsessive replay and panic around it?
reduce the feeling that the event defines you?
make the memory feel foggy, dreamlike, or less emotionally connected to your identity?
I’ve also spoken to some hypnotherapists who described memory reconsolidation as creating an internal “parallel reality” where your nervous system emotionally stops treating the original outcome as the dominant reality anymore. I’m wondering if EMDR can produce a similar effect emotionally, even if the factual memory still exists logically.
Basically I’m asking: can EMDR make a memory stop feeling psychologically alive and defining? Because right now it feels like my brain is stuck reliving it every day.

I’m going to be extremely blunt because I’m trying to find out if what I want is actually possible or if these therapists are overselling things.
I’m a 20 year old guy and my entire life I’ve considered myself straight. I’ve only ever wanted relationships with women, fallen for women, pictured marriage with a woman, etc. Sexually too.
That being said, over the years I did have curiosity through porn and fantasies involving men/trans content sometimes, but I never actually did anything with a guy in real life before this. It stayed in the realm of fantasy and curiosity.
A few weeks ago, I impulsively drove to a sauna near me that’s known for gay hookups. Even on the drive there I kept internally telling myself “don’t do this,” “turn around,” “leave,” etc. I genuinely did not feel mentally grounded. It felt like I was on autopilot and detached from myself.
I walked around for a while telling myself I wasn’t actually going to do anything and then eventually ended up giving another guy oral sex. The second it was over I immediately felt overwhelming panic, shame, disgust, regret, and emotional shock. I left feeling like I had just done something completely out of character that I never actually wanted in reality.
Ever since then my brain has basically broken.
I replay the memory constantly from the second I wake up until I fall asleep. I connect random things in daily life back to it. I look at myself differently. I obsessively analyze what it “means.” I feel disconnected from myself and emotionally trapped inside the memory. It genuinely feels like my nervous system froze around the event and can’t move on from it.
The weird thing is I don’t even want to repeat it. If anything the experience itself made me realize I did not actually want that life or reality. But my brain keeps obsessing over the fact it happened at all.
So now I’ve been researching hypnosis, EMDR, and especially memory reconsolidation because I honestly do not just want coping skills. What I want is to weaken and alter the memory to the point where emotionally it stops feeling like my reality.
I’ve already spoken to multiple hypnotherapists and some of them have told me that while you cannot literally erase factual memory, it may be possible to alter the subconscious/emotional experience of it so deeply that it feels distant, unreal, dreamlike, foggy, detached, or emotionally replaced by an alternate version of events.
One therapist literally described it as creating a “parallel reality” internally where my brain emotionally experiences the outcome as me turning around, leaving, going home, etc instead of actually going through with it.
That is honestly what I want. I want the original memory weakened enough that it no longer feels emotionally real, dominant, or defining in my mind.
So I’m asking people who actually understand hypnosis and reconsolidation:

Is this genuinely possible to some extent?

Can memories actually become emotionally detached
enough that they stop feeling personally real?

Has anyone experienced something like this successfully?

Or are these therapists selling fantasy?