u/Kitttycataclysmic

I've been learning the Rosary and have recently been studying the Sorrowful Mysteries. I've now been getting intrusive thoughts of Jesus suffering. I'll just be going through my day and am suddenly hit with sadness and thoughts of our Lord being scourged at the pillar. I see him in my mind's eye dripping with blood. I imagine Mother Mary watching her son struggle to carry the cross. I think about it all the time. Is this a normal experience?

I'm so excited! ... and a little bit scared.

That's all.

Sorry isn't going to cut it. You say sorry when you make a mistake. You didn't make a mistake. What you did was systematic cruelty. Every text and call that you ignored was you making the decision that my feelings were not important. And you made that decision again and again and again

I just miss him too much

I broke up with my xwbdp yesterday. I have so much I want to say. So I'm writing messages to myself. Angry messages, sad messages. They are to him but he will never see them. There is no point. It's just helping me grieve

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I sent him a lengthy text since he hasn't been answering my calls. Fuck I'm devastated. I can't believe how hard and fast I fell for him. It's like no other relationship I've been in. It only lasted 3 months and I'm just so heartbroken. I'm in so much pain. Plus now I think about it, it was the best sex I've ever had so I'll miss that too. I'm just ranting. Dw I won't do anything stupid but I kind of want to die

We haven't been together too long, only around 3 months but I fell hard and fast. The last 2 weeks he has been ignoring my phonecalls and texts and it feels like torture. I feel like he gave me the boyfriend treatment until I fell in love with him and then he just ripped it away and I'm just left flailing around confused and heartbroken. I feel like my heart is dying a death of 1000 cuts. It would be so much more kind to simply call me and break up with me! I've told him this and he didn't address the possibility of breaking up he just said he isn't trying to hurt me he is just really overwhelmed at life at the moment, but then he continues to ignore me. If things don't improve by Friday I'm breaking up with him. I don't feel nourished in this relationship and it will be easier for me to nourish myself if he is not in the picture bringing me down. I am heartbroken. I've been crying alot.

It's been a while since the clock talked to me. Unfortunately it's just going on and on about a specific trauma of mine. I don't want to think or hear about this trauma. I have been stressed lately (relationship problems) so I guess it makes sense that my hallucinations get worse