u/Kornfieldd

spending time with my male cousin and brother lately, i have mixed feelings.

it makes me feel like im one of them, but at the same time, it also makes me feel like an outcast.
when we talk about stuff like Call of duty or Fortnite, i can add a lot to the conversation, and i feel pride, because its such a stereotypically “male” thing.
but then on the other hand, i feel like an outcast. i socially transitioned at 9, so its not like they watched me grow up as a female, but they still mess up pronouns etc.
it makes me feel like a nuisance.
i hate the feeling of making people call me a different name, it makes me feel so selfish and troublesome.
i just want to fit in with other guys my age, trans or not.
please, just let me be reborn.

so, im a very radical transmed, but tucutes constantly try to make me one of them. im starting to question myself. someone, please, tell me my beliefs are the factual ones. i debate online a lot, and its getting to me. if we're in the right, why do i get constant death threats for voicing my opinions? i need some reassurance. tucutes make me feel like im a terrible person, and its getting to me.