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So I just got this Baggebo cabinet on Marketplace for $30 that I’m keeping at work. It’s going to be for an orchid I plan to buy, and seed starting and caladium tubers over the winter. May also keep an aroid/anthurium plant in there.

Here’s my issue. I don’t have a blow dryer so I can’t use the shrink window kit. If I get a plexi board cut to size, can I just put white electrical tape for it to hold?

This is at my job, so it can’t be too much of a project.

Also, I’m thinking of getting two pegboards, one to use as the pegboard and the other to cut as shelving. Because the shelving is pricey, so I’m hoping I can cut the pegboard to the size of the shelves. That way it has holes for circulation. I’d get it cut to size and not do this at my desk.

I’ve always used a heating mat to start seeds, and one won’t fit in there. Is the humidity enough?

Any tips on orchid care is appreciated. I took a class once but haven’t had the opportunity to put that knowledge into practice.

The main issue is that I want to do nothing. On the weekends I get nothing done. And there’s a lot I should be doing.

Here’s the background. I discovered I had adhd when I got laid off from my six figures job in 2023. I had it for only a year, I hadn’t built up much savings. My industry crumbled and the idea of getting another six figures job, is unlikely.

I had briefly gotten on atomoxetine and it did help but with no money, I couldn’t continue treatment. I also hadn’t been to a primary care doctor and the psychiatrist wasn’t going to continue with it anyway. I didn’t have insurance and really couldn’t focus on this anyway.

So I lived off my credit cards until my rent was up and then I moved in with my sister in 2024 who lives in another state. My stuff is still in storage back home.

It was my rock bottom. I started to really escape from dealing with life. My phone addiction grew. I’ve had part time jobs, then a year ago, I finally got a full time job, making 60k. In the state I live now and with my debt, that’s barely doing anything. I still haven’t saved.

I’m finally coming out of the fog but I don’t know where to start to put my life back together. I’m grateful for the job, but I’m so burnt out. I’m not getting any sleep, average 3 or 4 hours tops. I can’t get out of bed in the morning. My focus is shot and so is my motivation. I have no energy to do things.

I haven’t paid taxes in 2 years. It’s mostly because it overwhelmed me the first year, having moved to a new state and just hadn’t gathered everything.

I need to get my budget under control. I need to find a new job. I need to eat better. I had a therapist from the beginning of the year. Don’t think he understood adhd but I appreciated the outlet to talk. I’m finally ready to start picking my life back together and my co pay went up. I also realized that I’d focus on temporary issues and not the bigger stuff during therapy. I just rant about everything, and then time ran out. My therapist was unable to direct the conversation to what I should be focusing on. I may look for someone else.

I feel a bit hopeless. I felt better when I was working part time jobs. This job is in person and there are a lot of long hours with no overtime. I don’t have hope in the market that I can get another job that pays better with better hours.

My debt will be paid off at the end of 2027. But my life may still be trash, if I can’t keep a job. I’m trying to get 6 hours of sleep and lay off my phone. Removed Instagram and YouTube but still struggle with putting it down and facing life. And the times i do face life, I don’t know where to begin.

Sealing off Baggebo

I’m struggling in every aspect of my life

Not sure what to do with these two