u/LamboMercySwerve

It's been 10 months out of a 5 year relationship and I'm still crying a night atleast once a week I hate it so much will it ever end. I don't want another gf I don't want to ever be married or ever have kids. I just want her back. We dated from 18 to 23 and we were great friends 15-17. I feel like my whole life included her. I still want to text her about small inconveniences in my day and it just makes me sad.

Istill close myself out from anyone because It just feels wrong, I only want to be with her. All my life consists of is trying to overload my schedule to avoid thinking about her and it's not working. How can I move on how can I find love again