fck narcissist mother
Hi !’m 22! needed to rant here before fully crashing out and doing something inappropriate. I don’t know where to start but living with my parents feels like being in a cage. I love my parents, especially my father. I am a father’s girl but never a mothers’s girl. Since I was a child I experienced being physically and verbally abused. Until now I have been verbally abused. TBH all of us until my father, sisters, and even my niece. I hate her. I tried to be open and liked by her but it made me sick. I’m always the neglected one and high pressure from her.
I feel bad for my father until now he is experiencing physical and verbal abuse from my mother. I was a psychology student. Not to diagnose my mother but I feel she is narcissistic and histrionic. I don’t want to curse my mom but I hope she dies. Anything we do feels like against her.
Resting during our restday? Makes us feels guilty to sleep 8-10hours
Spending our money for ourselves—like clothes, foods etc? Makes us feel guilty to spend to nonsense and just give it to her
Going out with friends? Makes us feel guilty to enjoy sometimes
Saying out our opinion/feelings? Should always be on her side.
Many more. TBH.
Always rushing things, not agreeing with her means rebellious child, Everything she says is right. the list goes on…
Living with her feels like manifesting depression. Isn’t that impossible, right? I always cry, feel lonely, have episodes, crash out and feel pressured by her. Living with her means outliving myself—that’s how I feel. I love my father so much. I will be rich. He is the one on my to spoil list, my mother doesn't deserve to be spoiled. Everyone in the house is drained by my mother so I hope she rests now. Fuck traumas and fuck narcissists.
PS. Not intend to hurt anyone.