Robotics PhD + industry experience, but I still feel like a junior at everything
Hi everyone. Around COVID, I finished my Master’s in Robotics and started a PhD focused on planning and control.
The PhD was a bit of a shitshow. I didn’t make many relevant contacts, didn’t publish much, and came out of it feeling like I hadn’t really built the career I was supposed to be building. Somehow, though, I managed to land a research role at an automotive company.
It turned out that “research” wasn’t really what the company needed from me. Instead, I ended up broadening my skill set quite a bit, working mostly on data logging infrastructure and computer vision. I learned a lot, but eventually burned out and moved to a defense company, where I’m now working on a new robotics project being the “senior” in a junior team.
On paper, I guess my career sounds reasonably interesting. In reality, I feel like a fraud.
I’ve moved between different areas without ever really feeling like I found my path. I haven’t had much of a role model or mentor to guide me, so I’ve mostly just figured things out on my own and tried to keep moving forward.
The frustrating part is that I feel like a junior in almost everything. A lot of my Master’s colleagues are now moving into senior/lead roles, while I feel like I’ve spent the last several years becoming “kind of competent” at a bunch of different things without becoming particularly good at one.
Has anyone else ended up in a similar position after a PhD or several career pivots? How did you figure out what to specialize in, or whether you even needed to specialize? And how do you get past the feeling that you’re behind everyone else?