Is there any advice for this situation?
I'm 15, i have a best friend the same gender as me i have a huge crush on. i learned from some of her other friends she reciprocates these feelings, so for the past few weeks i've been trying to hint to her
We call each other cutesy nicknames, she calls me her wife, and sends me TikToks of her favorite ships or couples and says "us"
But i just learned she's lithoromantic (a term under the aroace umbrella where they can have a crush on someone but lose the feelings if they learn it's mutual) and it's genuinely crushing me. Obviously i don't blame her. it's not her fault this is how she feels attraction but it hurts so badly to have a mutual crush on someone you can't even tell about it because they'll stop liking you if you tell them
She's genuinely my only friend, and i'm homeschooled, so i almost never make any. I'm really scared of going back to having no friends, but i also know that this situation can't be good for my mental health. so if anybody older has advice for me i would really, really appreciate it