This is a bit of a rant, but I am actually happy. I don't want to waste my time trying to get my foot in the door of an entry level white collar job anymore. I have no hope. Most of these jobs are clearly ghost jobs. Companies do not train new employees and I've been laid off 3 times in 3 years, stalling any progress up the "ladder". I'm working customer service after getting a business degree, HR certifications, learning to code, and then getting an associates in IT and a security plus cert. Every time I tried something the economy shifted and that industry got boned.

I'm at peace to some extent. I just know God does not want me to keep racking up degrees and trying to get my foot in the door. This is over. This is not sustainable.

I am tired. I am broken. I am researching trade schools in my area. The local school district is hiring teachers, that seems promising. I'd rather make a lower wage as a teacher or postal delivery person or some trade or something, and just move on with my life than have to do another 4 interviews and an assessment for a ghost job.

My degrees are useless. I don't want to put myself in further debt. I can get teaching credentials or a masters and move on. I like kids and thought about teaching when I was younger.

There is no hope for entry level white collar office jobs. But that's okay.

I just want to work, have stability, and move on with my life.

If I get in better shape, I can join the military.

Any other people just given up hope on an office job?

in the vanilla scene, I am filtered out on apps and told I am too tall and possibly a man in a weird negging thing. Do men even want to fuck women who are 5 foot 8? Should I just stay home with my toys?

If you are the single friend in a group, coupled women will tell you (especially if you are black), that you do not need a man. Yet, they also will have a man fixing things around the house and emotionally supporting them.

Being in a good loving relationship is better than being single. being single is better than being abused. Can we stop telling women who want companionship that it's better to be single than get murdered or beaten up? It's very strange that people love doing this to black women in particular. I am in a friend group that is mostly white and I have seen their eyes glaze over when I talk about wanting to go on a date before having sex, wanting to find love in my life. They will talk about wanting marriage and kids though, and I guess that's normal and acceptable for them, but not for me. How interesting.

Having a partner who treats you with respect is a good thing. Why are black women told to be complete and total loners and not even want a date? My white friends always have dates, partners, marriage proposals. I am told I am strange for wanting a date.

It is getting harder for me to be friends with these women who offer no emotional support when I talk about wanting to date or even just be asked on a date, yet they are saying they want marriage and they constantly dating people. I am told immediately that it's better to be single than to be killed.

Why are my only options as a black woman, to be single or to be killed by a man? Can we not even want a man or a date, hell I could date a non binary or trans person, but the point is wanting emotional companionship is normal and it's very strange that some white women will immediately mention murder when black women talk about wanting dating or romance.

I am kind of sad. With this job market and my student loans, i will never have children. I can't afford to take care of them, and also provide old age care for my parents. I am now trying to get into nursing school to pivot and just have gainful employment after 3 layoffs in 3 years. it put me into a hole of student loan and personal debt. I don't blame anyone else, but I am just sad that the chance to even think about kids is pretty much gone.

Nursing school is so competitive that even straight As do not guarantee admission. So if that doesn't work out, I'll be trying to start over AGAIN.

By the time I get into nursing school, graduate, and begin paying off my debts and making decent money, I will be too old to have children and too psychologically burnt out.

I feel like the choice has been taken from me.

I also feel very depressed after 3 layoffs and a wasted degree and certifications.

Getting stuck in customer service after getting degrees has made me sort of hate people anyway, so why even bother having kids.

Coming in here saying they are 6x6 but are afraid they are small. Dude, that's not small. Or saying they hope 7 inches is enough. Stop watching x rated videos or man on the street interviews where drunk 21 year olds say they only want monster dongs.

I looked at temptation and desire, and it says it's for couples. Is there a cruise (preferably departing from LA), or a resort close to LA, that is open to single women? I am not trying to go somewhere I am not wanted or would make people uncomfortable. But I am single and want to play, and I always wanted to go on a cruise.