Anxiety, panic, worries, fears & phobias related to apocalyptic or dystopian futures
I think I've always been afraid of "the world ending" or "TEOTWAWKI" (the end of the world as we know it) - and specifically being around to witness and experience it, and see everyone I know die or suffer, along with myself. I've long dreamt of nightmares in which apocalyptic events happen like a gigantic megatsunami, or a collision between Earth and an astral body, asteroids and comets, etc. I know that the way the world eventually ends is unlikely to be so "glamorous" and "epic" - more like a combination of subtle, insidious factors and poor human decisions which collectively bring about human extinction or geocide - going out with a whimper, not a bang. But I think I have some combination of doomsday phobia (why isn't there a proper name seriously?), tsunamiphobia and megalophobia, probably other phobias. The ending of the movie "Melancholia" freaked me out so much - yeah maybe I shouldn't watch stuff like that, but it just resonated with thoughts and dreams I'd already had for a long time.
So before anyone tells me my fears are just irrational and the world won't end - while I truly appreciate the sentiment, and attempt to comfort, that strategy sadly just doesn't work for me anymore. It doesn't make me any less anxious, and can even increase my worry for reasons I'll explain. Sometimes convincing myself of that belief actually calmed me down, but I am increasingly aware that it's a form of self-deception and denial, at least in my view. Especially the often deployed normalcy bias ("it hasn't happened for all this time thus far; therefore it won't happen") - which I know is a logical fallacy.
I know about the scientific facts and I won't pretend they don't exist - and honestly, I think most humans are in denial of what scientists predict will happen in the future if we don't change course immediately (which is unrealistic), as well as even if we do. I think the solution has to be based in honesty, and accepting these facts. The reality is that we don't know what will happen, the future is uncertain, and we could lose everything; and there are even reasons to think that could be quite likely in the near future, as well as definite eventually and inevitably, the denial of which just makes me more worried that humans aren't taking existential threats seriously and doing what we can to prevent them.
Humans are destroying the place we call home, and the only habitable environment we currently have. James Cameron has said that the 3 big threats to humanity and the planet right now are human-caused climate change, nuclear war, and in-development artificial superintelligence. I tend to agree (I'm vegan & plant based for the planet like him), but I'm also aware of other low-risk, high-stakes threats like asteroids and comets, volcanoes (collapses or supereruptions/volcanic winters), and even an alien invasion, as far fetched as it sounds - and I'm a lot less worried about that last one to be fair. I think humans should be doing a lot of things very differently, and I'm worried that the real, documented problem of declining intelligence (reverse Flynn effect), the spread and near-universal acceptability of misinformation and rejection of science, and some kind of more subtle, less-farcical "Idiocracy" or "Don't Look Up" scenario appearing increasingly likely, are going to create the conditions for an utter disaster in one or more ways. I feel like the way humans are right now, we can't stop ourselves and our greedy short-sighted mentalities, and we are headed for complete and utter doom and destruction.
The fact that the new Khamenei of Iran has a belief that he is prophesied to bring about the apocalypse - holding more extreme and radical views than his father and being enraged and vindictive about what the US has recently done - does not give me peace. Nor does the spread and mutation of zoonotic viruses and antibiotic resistance, the fact that scientists predict the consequences of climate and environmental destruction will bring peril to nations and force mass migration and galvanize resource wars, even in the best case scenarios.
And recently I am starting to get super utterly freaked out by AI. Scientists predict the greatest risk of human extinction right now is not even climate change or nuclear war, but it's artificial general intelligence or even superintelligence. And this is at odds with the beliefs of the general public, who generally dismiss it as sci-fi, forgetting that many things that happened in sci-fi or futurist writing later came true, not to mention the reality of what humans are building and what AI researchers and tech leaders are speculating about it. I think the current focus on the problems of narrow AI is a huge distraction. You're worried about job loss and the theft and replacement of human-created art? Give me a break. I understand those are problems, but holy hell, put it into perspective, and please at least ALSO give some focus and attention to the p-doom (probability of a "doomsday scenario") from AI. Muh muh water use - says someone eating a cheeseburger which has many times the resource use and environmental impact of AI. AI is not even bad for the environment overall, while it has higher local impacts - that part is true. The same resistance to new technology was said for Electric Vehicles. It can actually improve efficiency by orders of magnitude and replace far less sustainable physical, manual, legacy systems - potentially helping solve climate change (though I am still generally against its development for ethical and pragmatic reasons) and is already lower impact than most other things people are doing today. Again, not a non-issue, but a massive ironic distraction from what we need to be focusing on - the alignment issue. AIs are increasingly disaligned with human interests and there are potential catastrophic outcomes that can result from that as they become more powerful and intelligent than us. Value lock-in is also an issue - humans' current values are honestly terrible and self-absorbed, and teaching AI to treat other, less-intelligent beings as disposable like we treat other animals can give them moral authority to do the same to us. Everyone's denial around this subject, and others, just makes me less hopeful for the future and more pessimistic and worried/anxious. I'm not trying to start an argument, but when everyone seems to disagree with you about something, it's kind of necessary to put in some disclaimers.... otherwise I just get attacked by everyone. :(