relapsing “just cause i felt like it” feels really supid
I don't know why I relapsed. I just kinda did. I was panicking a tiny bit but that's about it. I wasn't having any urges, I was lost in my own head. Is it as stupid as I tell myself it is? I feel like shit for it like it wasn't a "justifiable relapse" I did this to myself and now I don't know what to do. I was 12 days clean but I feel as up giving up on trying to be sober or that I should. I just don't know what to with myself anymore.