u/LividAd5974

I've been still thinking about my past addiction. I've ended it once before and not once have I attempted to go back, it was only until a traumatic event occurred I went back to the addiction to simply help myself ignore what I needed to move away from.

Then simply put it, when I tried to leave afterwards, I couldn't. It wasn't like before where I'd just walk away, nah, it'd still be on my mind. And unlike before, I had a void in me that I didn't feel beforehand, it made me struggle with feeling the emotions i would usually feel.

It left me feeling hollow, like there was something missing. I try getting into a repetitive lifestyle to help fill in the void, but nothing really works, it only just fills it in for a short while.

This all got me wondering if it's ok if I went back and tried to somewhat replicate what I did at first.

I dno, I've been trying to think of a way and this just feels like something better than waiting and waiting until something happens.