u/Local-Debate-5565

I'm not sure what my issue is or why I have a hard time celebrating myself, I don't know. It's putting me into fight or fight. Also the stress of everything really makes me question if it's worth it, if I'm worth it, finding out who's there for you like you were for them ... it's just a lot.

Love my partner beyond belief, I just have a hard time being vulnerable and such.

I officially got diagnosed with POTS last year - suspected from having covid 2 times. In addition to that, I've been having increasing random symptoms on top of being in debilitating pain every. Single. Day for the past several months. Its to the point where I've been tested for lupus, MS, and a few more. I'm still on the " figuring out what it is " journey and it's been a rough ride. There's so many autoimmune conditions out there..With more tests coming up all i can do is hope for answers that lead to the proper relief.