I’m so tired of this. Could someone just listen to me?
I developed selective mutism when I was two years old, so ever since that age, I’ve been quiet in school and up til’ now in university. I have never really had friends because I couldn’t talk to anyone in school because of this disorder.
I’ve been wanting to get into vegan activism for many years now, but i’m struggling because I can’t talk to people, no matter how hard I try. Selective mutism is REAL and it seems like no one cares about how hard it is to live with it.
I care about animals deeply, and I just want to help them, but I just can’t seem to have discussions with other humans and it’s so incredibly frustrating.
Today, I brought some vegan flyers in my bag, and I was going to put them up in town, but I just felt so self conscious and anxious. So I just didn’t do it.
Also another thing that happened today was that me and my sister (also vegan) walked past a anonymous for the voiceless group, and my sister went and spoke to them about getting active and it ended up with her getting invited to participate in the event. But I didn’t follow them on their social media because i’m too shy and anxious. And I basically dissociated during the whole conversation with them, where my sister solely spoke with them.
I’ve been asking the autism habilitation to give me a appointment to help me deal with the selective mutism and i’m getting an appointment in three months.
I just wish I could talk to people, but I just can’t. selective mutism is stopping me from helping animals.