u/Lonerism_1

I mean i kind of already know that I should speak to a doctor and tell them the complete truth, but i need some encouragement and i have no one in my life who can provide that.

So, I am 20F and I turn 21 in a few months. My period began back in early 2021 when I was 15. And ever since day one it was a lot of blood. I was so shocked and afraid. I knew my period was going to start eventually, but no one could prepare me for how horrible it would be. I would be in so much pain, and I'd be so drained and exhausted, literally unable to leave my bed without feeling dizzy because of all the blood loss.

I explained how much blood there was to my mom; she just told me "that's how it is, you have to deal with it." So 15 year old me believed my mom because why wouldn't I? So I started to think there was something wrong with me, that I am not strong enough, or I'm just being too sensitive or being a brat. When school started in fall 2021, I literally had no energy to get out of bed, even when I wasn't bleeding, because I had lost so much blood whenever I was bleeding. My parents started to call me a disappointment and say that i was just using my period as an excuse to stay home. How could they say that? I was literally begging for help each day and they did not believe me.

Fast forward, these past few years have been awful. I still haven't gone back to school. I tried. I tried so hard. My periods are still heavy as all hell, my grandmother and my dog both died 2 and a half years ago. Yeah I know that's sorta what grandmothers and dogs do. But I don't think I can express enough how they were my only friends my entire life. Since then I've been even more depressed and exhausted than before. I stopped trying to talk to my parents about anything because they just blame me and tell me that I am not trying hard enough to make my life better.

I feel like if I just figure out why my periods are so heavy, (and by heavy I mean i soak a pad every 40 minutes each day for five days straight) then i could get some sort of birth control, and get my energy levels up so I can actually get out and get a shitty job so I can get out of this home and away from this family who never helped me.

I know you might suggest I go back and finish high school, but I've decided that is just not possible for me considering my emotional state right now. My plan is to just get a job so I can at least get out of the house and away from my parents a few hours a day, and feel less like a disappointment and a burden.

Sorry if this was a bit incohesive towards the end, I am so tired and just fed up with letting life and everyone around me, kick me around.

I mean i kind of already know that I should speak to a doctor and tell them the complete truth, but i need some encouragement and i have no one in my life who can provide that.

So, I am 20F and I turn 21 in a few months. My period began back in early 2021 when I was 15. And ever since day one it was a lot of blood. I was so shocked and afraid. I knew my period was going to start eventually, but no one could prepare me for how horrible it would be. I would be in so much pain, and I'd be so drained and exhausted, literally unable to leave my bed without feeling dizzy because of all the blood loss.

I explained how much blood there was to my mom; she just told me "that's how it is, you have to deal with it." So 15 year old me believed my mom because why wouldn't I? So I started to think there was something wrong with me, that I am not strong enough, or I'm just being too sensitive or being a brat. When school started in fall 2021, I literally had no energy to get out of bed, even when I wasn't bleeding, because I had lost so much blood whenever I was bleeding. My parents started to call me a disappointment and say that i was just using my period as an excuse to stay home. How could they say that? I was literally begging for help each day and they did not believe me.

Fast forward, these past few years have been awful. I still haven't gone back to school. I tried. I tried so hard. My periods are still heavy as all hell, my grandmother and my dog both died 2 and a half years ago. Yeah I know that's sorta what grandmothers and dogs do. But I don't think I can express enough how they were my only friends my entire life. Since then I've been even more depressed and exhausted than before. I stopped trying to talk to my parents about anything because they just blame me and tell me that I am not trying hard enough to make my life better.

I feel like if I just figure out why my periods are so heavy, (and by heavy I mean i soak a pad every 40 minutes each day for five days straight) then i could get some sort of birth control, and get my energy levels up so I can actually get out and get a shitty job so I can get out of this home and away from this family who never helped me.

I know you might suggest I go back and finish high school, but I've decided that is just not possible for me considering my emotional state right now. My plan is to just get a job so I can at least get out of the house and away from my parents a few hours a day, and feel less like a disappointment and a burden.

Sorry if this was a bit incohesive towards the end, I am so tired and just fed up with letting life and everyone around me, kick me around.

Hey, I am 20F who would like a girl group or duo to play with occasionally. I would like to clarify I am not into NSFW conversations or interactions. If you try to joke about it or sexualize me even as a joke, you're out.

I play Xbox almost everyday, and time zones isn't an issue. Preferably any north American time zones would work best.

I play Fortnite, Overwatch [i main Ana], Minecraft, Stardew Valley, and I am obsessed with the Tomb Raider survivor trilogy. I also have RDR2 and I have played Resident Evil Requiem so we can talk about that game too! I am quite average at all these games but can sometimes carry.

Some days I just do not have the energy to use a mic, but i try my best to mic up as much as I can. I am pretty chill, no drama, I just like to play games and have a good laugh. I am pretty dry and have quite dark humor but other than that I just keep my focus on the game.

My DMs are not open. So I kindly ask you comment here and then I will DM you. Again, I am not looking for romantic or sexual relationships, just some casual gaming buddies. P. S. - if you don't know what to comment just comment your favorite color or favorite song 😇.

This song has been an anchor for me for so long. Its just as cathartic the thousandth listen as it was the first. I just wondered if anyone else felt the same :3