Anyone know of any mm second chance bully romance books I'm looking for ones where the bully the sub w some hate/revenge fucking. Wouldn't hate some kinkier topics. Preferably a college based setting. Just finished a matcha made in hell and I liked that.
This summer I was supposed to be able to focus on finding a job and getting a license. My family has been making me feel like such a failure and disappointment for not having either which is part of the reason I've been so depressed and honestly so stressed I resorted back to b/p to cope. But I was honest about the b/p and now I'm in supposed to be in outpatient program that is about 7 hours long for like 8 weeks. I wanted like just a therapist who specializes in eating disorders not treatment I didn't ask for. Now I feel like I'm not going to be able to really focus on getting a job and a license which is just going to make me spiral mentally. I also despise long hours of waiting to go home which is exactly what it's going to feel like. I just got out of school but it feels like I'm not really going to be able to get a break. Safe to say all I learned from this is to never be honest with anyone a out my eating issues ever again. If I get clean and then relapse I'm not telling anyone shit.
I was 4 days clean then I got drunk and b/p again. Idk can I just not get drunk anymore I thought it would be fine bc it's not weed and that's usually a trigger of mine but I rly enjoy alcohol so that sucks if I can't.
I'm a 17yr female I have no job and no license and no motivation to do anything. For the past year or so all I've been doing is comparing myself to others I feel so behind and like such a failure. School and life got stressful and I relapsed a couple months back. I'm bullimic and it's absolute hell. I have adhd and OCD which definitely contributes to my mental health issues. I used to binge as a kid and was extremely overweight then I restricted and lost all the weight but I still struggle w binging which is where the bullimia comes in. I thought once I lost weight I would finally be happy that I could just be fucking normal. But no I'm not a pretty girl I compare myself to everyone all the time I hate my acne and my face. I'm not even a normal girl and I hate my body now more then I did when I was overweight. I feel like I'm never going to fit in. My bullimia has made everything worse and recently I've just stopped trying in school and in my search for a job. I just don't care anymore. I'm to tired to care and that just makes me feel even worse. Like I'm just a lazy disappointment to everyone I'm around. Like I'm not good enough or I'm not trying hard enough. Sometimes I feel like I'm using my poor mental health as an excuse and I need to be making more of an effort regardless. But everything just feels so hard. Sometimes I think about killing myself. It would be so fucking easy it would solve all of my problems and sometimes it feels like the only way to stop the cycle of hell that is bullimia too. I've fantasized about a couple of ways I could go about it, pills or a roof or slitting my wrists. But at the same time I can't imagine going through with it. It just feels so final. And bc of that I feel like I'm just using the idea of it as an excuse to idk stay depressed and keep just doing nothing or I'm just wanting attention from it. Idk but the idea that I could just gives me so much comfort. I'm trying to get into treatment for the bullimia but it's not going very well. Anyways I was wondering if I should tell my therapist or not. I honestly don't want to deal with the repercussions of telling anyone but I would like to work through my emotions and try to fix literally anything in my life. But I also just don't feel like the suicidal thoughts are serious enough so I feel stupid bringing it up.