Is it PGAD ? The most uncomfortable symptom I've ever had
I'll try to make it brief. So I'm 28, I've been having hypertonic pelvic floor since 3 years ago, but actually it started when I was 11, I had some urge to pee especially after bowel movement or ejaculation, I just got used to it but I was clenching my pelvis a lot to hold pee and I even clenched while masturbating. So in the last 3 years I had different flare ups, burning in urethra and glans, levator Ani spasm and many others but they just disappeared on their own. I saw some urologists who kept telling me I'm doing well and nothing is wrong there.
I lerant that clenching my pelvis isn't really good for me, so I started relaxing it as much as possible, 2 weeks ago I decided to masturbate while relaxing my pelvis instead of clenching. I ejaculated the first time normally and I wanted to go for a second round ( in which I used to clench 100% ) so when I was like 80% there close to ejaculation I felt my pelvis clenched so hard especially my pubic muscles and the the left adductor area and I lost erection and my heart started racing, I didn't panic actually, I was very calm and I just stopped without any fear.
When I went to sleep, I started getting like waves I'm about to ejaculate and they were annoying not enjoyable. When I slept, it all disappeared. It kept coming and disappearing for a week, the second week it got better, the waves became just like an echo of 1/10 or 2/10 max and they came especially if I think about them while sitting laying down on my side.
I'm in week 3, and it's better actually but still very annoying. What I noticed:
\- I developed anxiety ( I've never had it )
\- when I'm walking it's impossible to have the feeling.
\- if I touch with my hand I can feel it, but the constant friction with clothes while walking doesn't trigger it.
\- coffee truggers it like hell ( before it started I never had any problems with coffee)
\- the weirdest thing is when that feeling comes, my penis extremely shrinks ( like my pelvis is guarding)
I've looked for explanations, the most one convicted me is that I shocked my nervous system when I tried masturbating with a relaxed pelvis cuz it's been always used to it being clenched. So my nervous system now is overreacting thinking that it's protecting me by clenching my pelvis and it's staying in alert mode ( fight or flight) and the pudendal nerve is being irritated.
Has anyone of you guys went through this kind of situation? I've had many symptoms, but this one really fucked me up....