u/LoveTurtles24

This Job is very physically demanding for me especially after having Injuries in the past, the sounds from the airplanes are very sensory overloading for me, my supervisor is an asshole, I don't like working nights & is difficult to transfer to days or mid shift, and I don't like working in extreme temperatures. I know that I'm the one who took this Job and maybe It was good for me a few years ago when I had more energy or didn't have the Injuries. But I also feel stuck since there's not many other places that are hiring or will pay me $27.50 an hour. This Job also gives me health Insurance and tuition assistance up to 5k but that's not enough to fund a full years worth of study for a degree that I want.

Am I going to have to suffer doing this Job for the rest of my Life? What can give me some hope for my Life?

I just wonder because I dropped out before the Pandemic and wonder how much easier or harder that it would of been to attend during the covid-19 pandemic. So, did the pandemic make your academics easier or harder?

My Brother was an asshole even was I was ten years old picking on me because I didn't have a girlfriend. My classmates all told me I was ugly when I was a Kid. Me feeling bad that I didn't have a girlfriend at ten years old is the same reason I feel bad about not having one at nearly thirty years old.

How do I start dating if I'm so embarrassed of not having any girlfriends at nearly thirty years old?

I know that there's something that I could do better on Okcupid & Tinder but I've tried and even asked for my family or friends for help but no success. I wish that I could hire a dating coach to step in and help but I just don't have the money in the budget for it especially after being off of Work for so long because of an Injury from an accident. I know that I could try to improve things myself but it really doesn't appeal to me to spend 1-3 hours every day swiping on the apps to not get a match when there are many better things that I could do with my time.