u/Lucky-Negotiation153

ever since i turned 14 me and my dad would get into really bad fights which would result to him not speaking to me for months. sometimes its my fault, and sometime its his, but neither of us apologize. sometimes we randomly start talking again and then two weeks later we have another argument and he stops acknowledging i exist again, and during that time he would treat my little sister extra well, like a punishment or something.

anyways, my mom is constantly pissed at me for “not caring about my dad” and today my dad had to leave for two weeks and i didnt say goodbye since hes ignoring me anyways, and she called me heartless. am i really a terrible person?

like why tf is this happening

whenever ANYTHING happens, my mind spirals- what if he heard me say that about him? what if she hates me for doing that? and nothing ends up happenjng! how do i stop?

maybe i watch too much crime stuff idk but even the adults im pretty close witb like my friends parent or male teachers all scare me sm and i get hella intrusive thoughts of them doing bad things to me if tou know what i mean and in real life it affects my jnteractions with them and its so terrible bc they did nothing wrong and it fucks with my head sm that i start avoiding them

does dreaming about having sex with someone mean you wanna have sex with them? bc if that is true theres smth rlly wrong w me