u/LumpiaRulez101

So I have been on Prozac for a bit over a year now. I thought the clenching would go away, but it has not.

Also, a part of me feels like I just don't care to socialize anymore. I'm pretty introverted, but now it's like I really will just avoid doing anything social with coworkers. I am fine when I am there, but I guess it's just that I have no motivation now?

I smoke weed daily and am wondering if I should try to cut my usage first. My psychiatrist had mentioned doing it daily is not recommended if I am on Prozac, but I hear mixed things about this.

I've thought of asking if I can taper of Prozac and try a different medication, as the clenching started pretty much right when I started taking Prozac... I will catch myself multiple times throughout the day clenching my teeth and it makes me feel like I'm crazy or something.

Any advice? Basically, the clenching is there whether or not I've smoked, so I'm wondering if she will try to tell me to quit smoking first, or just to taper off and eventually switch to another antidepressant.

I've seen some availability there and I'm trying to get out of employee housing. I've worked and lived in the county for about 3 years.

They are pretty poorly reviewed on Google which concerns me, but also there are a fairly limited number of reviews. I'm not too concerned about size or aesthetics of the unit, but more so things like mold, roaches, etc.

Anyone here live in them, or know someone who does? I have seen like one or two reviews mention bed bugs and cockroaches, but not sure if it's just from a disgruntled former tenant that got evicted, or if it's actually true.

Location: Colorado

Is this a common thing? I have read that you can have an ESA with you even in a non-pet friendly living space, provided you have the documentation for it. Is this true?

I currently live in employee housing and am allowed to have my cat who is a registered ESA, in which I also have a letter from my psychiatrist. Also, my GM was really cool so she didn't mind me having my cat as long as he was registered as an ESA.

I've been trying to move into my own place. I live in a ski town so housing is hard to come by. I have seen some things recently, but most of them have a "no pets" policy, but again, I am not sure if I would be ok if I presented my ESA letter to them upon applying? I can't help but feel like that is deceitful for some reason, so I've been primarily just looking for units that state that they do allow pets.

Growing up, and even now, I tend to be too critical of myself at times. I feel self-conscious about the fact that I am in my early 30s, and still kind of clueless about many things. I basically feel like a teenager in an adult body, and I just happen to have a job, can afford rent, have a car, etc.

Also, I have noticed that most of my life, I tend to judge people inside of my head. I don't ALWAYS do it, but I definitely catch myself doing it at times. I feel that I kind of avoid trying to make close friends because I worry that I'm actually just a shitty and judgmental person. This judgment also leads me to believing people are a certain type of way (for example, someone that is very fit/muscular at the gym, I feel intimidated by slightly and assume the worst of them, unless they interact with me).

I don't feel like this is fair because I know if people judged me before meeting me, I'd be kind of offended. I have some tattoos on my left forearm and I'm sure there's probably some people that think I'm "rebellious" or "rugged" or something, but I'm not those things at all. I'm kind of an anime nerd, I love chilling with my cat, and I'm somewhat of a homebody.

Growing up, my mother would often compare me to other children, in both a positive and negative light. I know she didn't mean much by it, and it's not like I'm angry at her because she just did what she felt was right at the time. But now, it's like I have the ingrained habit of comparing myself to other people, whether it's something to put myself above them, or put them above me.

Any advice? I'm not really happy with my life besides having the necessities like food, a home, etc.

We were together for about a year and a half. The last month of the relationship, I had mentioned to her she seemed distant and we weren't spending much time together... she not only called me needy (wild because I was literally just asking her to do things with me we were doing together MONTHS ago), she made little to no effort to change anything. I think one time she cuddled with me in bed for like a minute and then started browsing her phone/social media.

I blocked her after we broke up. Then, 4 months later, saw her on Facebook, tagged in some picture with some Dj guy. I felt like this was a slap in the face, the fact that I blocked her, and not only did I STILL see her, I saw her with a guy.

I think the thing that is really confusing/bothering me, is that when I was with her, I didn't feel like she was really genuine with me. I basically felt like she was just using me as a placeholder because she didn't want to be single. She even told me when we first started dating "I'm almost always in a relationship", so at times I felt like she was just using me to get over her ex. I feel like she is just essentially always rebounding one after another. But still, I can't help but feel like I wasn't good enough or something... but also, feeling conflicted because I know during the relationship, I don't really think I was that happy. I felt perpetually stressed out, as she was often complaining/venting to me, texting me all day long, etc... which nothing is wrong with venting, but I remember the one time I vented to her about my work, she walked away and said I was being annoying which seemed insanely unfair.

So basically, it's like I know I wasn't really that happy, but I keep ruminating. I guess I also kind of beat myself for not just ending it sooner when I had began to feel like I wasn't actually loved by her, and instead just used as a placeholder... but I didn't want to "hurt her feelings"... but then I got hurt in the end lol.

Any advice? It sucks because I feel like I'm so afraid to ever try dating anyone again. I just feel like a fool for thinking I would be "different" for her. I think when she told me "I'm almost always in a relationship", I should have not ignored my gut feeling.