u/Lumpy_Interview_1597

(je pensais faire ce post sur un sujet en particulier, mais au final c'est plus un mélange d'un début de réflexion de ma part très simplifiée (parce que malheureusement rien n'est ni simple ni manichéen) mais aussi une demande d'aide parce qu'en soit je suis vraiment perdu et je n'arrive à faire confiance en rien parce que j'ai l'impression que tout pourrais me trahir)

Il y a pas mal de vidéos que je vois (je sais que c'est pas parce que je vois sur les réseaux que c'est vrai et/ou courant) des gens de partis politiques opposés accuser l'autre de la même chose que ce dont l'autre l'accuse.

Par exemple des gens de droite accuser l'extrême gauche d'être antisémite et des gens de gauches accuser l'extrême droite d'être antisémite.

Si pour les deux, être antisémite c'est quelque chose de mauvais, comment cela se fait-il que les deux ne se lient pas sur ce point, à la place de s'attaquer ?

Est-ce que les médias de l'un est de l'autre sont en fait exactement les mêmes mais juste avec les noms des acteurs et groupes de différents ?

Et du coup par là, comment puis-je faire confiance aux partis que je pourrais soutenir ? Comment savoir si je suis de droite ou de gauche ? Parce que peut-être que c'est mon côté qui ment ? Peut-être que c'est l'autre côté qui ment ? Peut-être que ce sont les deux ou que ce n' est aucun des deux ?

Comment je peux défendre le camp que je soutiens si en face ils me disent soutenir la même chose et que c'est mon camp qui me ment ?

Et si je dois faire moi-même mes recherches de mon côté, comment être sûr que ce sur quoi je tombe est fiable ?

Ou juste être sûr que je comprends bien ?

Comment arrêter de douter ?

J'ai l'impression qu'en ce moment je ne vois que des vidéos sur les réseaux qui demandent à agir "maintenant" ! Mais comment je peux agir si je suis pas sûr que ce pour quoi je pense agir est vraiment ce pour quoi je vais agir ?

Et comment je fais pour savoir si agir sur quelque chose va la faire évoluer en bien ? Évoluer ? Sûrement. En bien ? Comment je peux savoir ?

Et comment je fais pour croire en n'importe quel côté quand les deux accusent l'autre de l'accuser directement et d'être violent envers l'autre directement ? Je suppose que ce sont les personnes les moins posées de chaque côté qui demandent ça de l'autre sans l'appliquer elles même.

Mais encore j'ai l'impression que ce sont les personnes les moins posées qui demande à faire bouger les choses.

Comment je sais que ce qui est demandé en masse sur les réseaux est une réflexion posée et réfléchie quand elle a tout l'air d'être un gros effet de groupe dans la colère ?

Comment je fais pour croire le camp auquel je pense appartenir quand il dit que tout est une distraction pour me faire croire que le vrai ennemi est ailleurs, quand après il me montre du doigt le "vrai ennemi" de la même façon que les distractions précédentes ?

Est-ce que encore une fois ce "vrai ennemi" est une distraction ou est-ce que c'est enfin le vrai ennemi ?

Genre oui ils sont en colère, donc c'est que quelque chose les a mis en colère, qui est sûrement justifiée. Mais encore une fois, ils sont en colère, donc il y a plus de chances que la réaction soit plus émotive que réfléchie, et donc soit, soit, mal dirigée, soit mal exécutée.

(Merci d'avoir pris le temps de lire ce pavé.

Je sais qu'il y a des différences claires tout de même entre les partis. Mais après je ne consomme peut-être que des médias qui me montrent les différences négatives entre mon camp et les autres, ou qui en inventent.

Je dérive peut-être vers le complotisme mais j'ai peur que ce soit tout de même vrai que l'on ne puisse pas faire confiance aux médias. Si ce n' est pas le cas et que je vire vers le complotisme, pourriez-vous s'il vous plaît m'en extraire ?)

Imagine two indestructible objects unable to change at all, like their atoms can't move at all. One is the floor and the other is a cube.

What would happen if the cube would happen to fall on the floor ? Where would the energy go and how, like, in what way, in what manner ?

Because it they can't change they wouldn't be able to feel vibrations or distord to bounce, right ?

(When I say they can't move it's inside of the objects themselves, they can still move as a whole, as the object)

Why is dirty hair going more in every direction and is harder to comb than clean hair ? Maybe it's because the dirt makes the hair stick to eachother but if that's the case, why can a single dirty hair be rebellious if the dirt can't make it stick

I was wondering if we were placing our inner voice coming from inside our head because our brain is there or is it for another reason.

I was wondering if I was placing it in my head because my eyes and my sight are there too.

Maybe we visualise our inner voice in our head only because we have most of our senses on our head (smell, earing, taste, sight, touch even if we have that all around the body). As our senses makes enhances what we are aware of, like a lot and we are almost only focused on our senses to feel life.

But what if our brain was in our belly but still we have our smell, earring, taste and sight on our head, would we still place ourselves in our head ?

Would someone with no senses, except maybe touch, place their consciousness in their head ?

I don't know if I'm trans or if I'm something else, or if the doubt is from something else entirely. And I don't know how to know.

The first time I had the desir to be the other genre was when I was very young, maybe 5 or 6 and I asked to my mom if I could be a girl. She said that I could but that for now we weren't able to completely change the sex of someone with science.

That made me sad and I pushed it away. The thought and need for it would come and go at least once a year for a few months until I told myself no you can't as you wouldn't fully like it if you don't have the complete body with it.

And then I heard about trans people. I asked myself if I was one of them. And the desir got stronger and I almost came out at the time. But as I could not have the body I wanted anyway I pushed it away. I started to want to be able to go as I wish from one sex to the other as I kinda liked my actual body and what it could physically do (my look and sport's capacities).

And not long ago I heard about things that sounded like if science had evolved further on the subject and since then I can't push the need and thought away. Even though I still wanted both sexes, if I could have only one, I prefered the other.

I saw someone say that cis don't ask themselves if they are cis, they just know. And then said the same for trans. But what am I if I don't know ? And a lot of people here also don't know so maybe just knowing is not the only way to know.

I also saw the test thing of "If you had a button that would change your body in the sex you want it to be, would you press it ?" And still I don't really know. I think I would but I would hesitate and kind of regret my old body.

I saw a lot of people here saying that living with their birth sexed body is a nightmare and all, but I don't feel the same.

I kinda like this body. I just wish I had another more.

I like my current body but I sometimes cry and am in rage that I can't have the body I want most, I find it so unfair.

I was thinkng that what I was, was someone that had no gender and was just me, and would like to be able to go from one sex to the other at will. I was kinda sure. I was wishing for something like in Ranma 1/2.

But as time goes and as I think of it, I'm less and less sure and I want more and more just to have the other sex body. And I think about the button thing and hesitate less and less.

I feel like in reality I'm really just trans, but how do I know for sure ?

Am I not convincing myself I am trans when in reality I'm not?

Do I really like my actual body ? Maybe I'm in deny and in reality, I hate it, and doesn't even know it yet.

And I'm trying to tell myself that with time I would find the correct answer, but it's already been more than 15 years that I'm asking myself these questions and I am 20.

And I fear that if I take more times I will pass the period where I would be able to really enjoy my body if fully transitionned.

I don't know what to do

For example cake dough solidy in an oven.

And metal melts.

Like, how can heat melt and solidy things at the same time ?

Why is dirty hair going more in every direction and is harder to comb than clean hair ?

Maybe it's because the dirt makes the hair stick to eachother but if that's the case, why can a single dirty hair be rebellious if the dirt can't make it stick to anything else (and so to no other hair) and be completely soft if it's clean.

Does the dirt makes the matter itself of the hair harder and stickier ?

When we are a baby in our mother, a tube goes from the mother to the baby by the navel and allows nutriments to go feed the baby. And when the tube is cut it makes a scar, the navel. But is the tube still there inside the belly behind the scar of the navel, or does it, like, disappear or retract or I don't know ?

Why does a disease often have new variants if its bacterias reproduce by dividing themselves ? How can their reproduction result in a different variant if they are a copy of the one they are from ?

And if they can evolves into different variants by dividing themselves, and if they grow in population very quickly, how are there only a few other variants of the disease and not millions ? Does that mean that the probability for a disease to have a new variant that works is very very very low ?

What is the evolution purpose to experience different type of love ? Like, there is the familial love, the friendship love, the romantic love, etc. But why not just one type of love, the same for everyone, and just the intensity of it varying depending of the persons ?

I always hear that space is cold, and it is represented as extremely deadly cold.

But I can't help but think that if we were in space at the same distance of the Sun as the Earth is, space would be hot. Just like the planets close to the Sun are heated by the Sun's rays, even the ones without atmosphere, our body should be hit and heated in the same way ? No ? And maybe it would be like deadly heat or deadly rays, but I don't understand how it could be cold.

I was always told that space was just nothingness, emptiness. Like, between the Earth and the Moon there is space and it's just emptiness. No matter.

But I was told Yesterday that space is made of matter but it is called empty and nothingness just because it is not visible matter, like gas, just like when we say our drink is empty when in fact it is not and it is full of air, but we ignore it because it's invisible.

So, like, what is space ?