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Everyone telling me to get therapy over FAILING PEP with proof, is legally by definition insane.

I had high risk exposure, the most stressing period of my life attaining those pills. The moment I got them I had to take them, because I was at the medium hours mark already. I took them consistently for over a week, one day I missed by a few minutes and panicked thinking this meant the drug exited my system. With no one to speak to, I asked ai on advanced mode 'if like multiple minutes overdue was okay i'm panicked' Got some "Yes it's fine. Infact the drug levels stay safe and protectant up to a few hours but past 12 no. The 24 hour guideline is just for good measure, the drug levels don't drop in a dangerous way it's still inside your system"

dangerousway.

So.

I extended my time consistently for a few days, thinking it did nothing so why pause everything I'm doing to dig out my pills? It was better than scrambling for my pills when I was busy.

Then, 2 severely chaotic days I was out and about hanging onto my sanity physically and mentally in a very stressful circumstance, pills got out of my mind way before my system.

I missed 2 doses entirely by mistake, not stacked at least I think. And also both.. Delayed... I rarely took my pill right on time, it'd be off by half an hour, or 2 sometimes without strict adherence.

I finished my course, the last few days taking them with religious adherence to schedule, and early to make up for it in someway, heard 30 pills is more ununcommon, maybe that nurse nearly saved me.

Even if I didn't have HIV exposure truly, the fact of knowing I failed even if I didn't have it will leave an impact on me for life. The personal failure. Digs deeper than bones growing inside my body, integral and already shattered to my sense of self and esteem.

I'll never forget this

I hated blood tests. I have a massive phobia. I pass out. If I have HIV. That's 2 every year. 2 times I'll remember that only in my year, because pain is sharper than any other experience when you hate it, there's rarely anything that can make you pass out that's as memorable.

Fuck ai. Fuck hallucinations. Fuck danger assement assumption. Fuck AI because without it I would of adhered even if ignorant. Fuck AI for telling me point blank I was still protected past 24 hours, a hint of clarity could of saved me. A dot of code out of the trillions. Fuck them for wanting to charge me thousands. Fuck the person who did this to me.

Fuck promiscuity

I'm the result of billions of failed relationships.

((((

If Ai could of told me or anyone

"We can't say you'll be okay because the drug is the response, the disease is the attack. Missing a dose a little bit, can only be said to be okay against the measurment of your viral load..Which can't be known. So stick to 24 hours, that's where ambiguity is. Missing a dose or delayed, is a loss that can't be picked up and flipped because we don't know how big your viral load is"

Instead of hearing "a few minutes or an hour or so is okay it doesn't harm you, drug blood levels are consistent" this is like food chemicals in America, safe in that dose but never assessed out of that singularity.

))))

I do see my ccountability for not thinking more, but it doesn't make up for the treacherous fault AI had in this and its stupid language antics my brain didn't question...

Before I get taken down for hate speech. Me saying fuck people who sleep around that's why STDS spread is not hate, it's observation people.

I will treat you like a cat All boundaries respected, until I know what's okay. I am reliable to be a good partner if I show up, plans sometimes interrupt me.

MUST READ: You must understand seeing someone first, is important to evabluate if we are a match. Show a photo of yourself when you message me, enough to identify if we met. Normally I'd do this myself first, but I'm on the receiver end. Include range you can travel in.

Good hygiene required, respectful, handholding prefered, no hidden motives, I want some bf-like recharge time. That's it! There's nothing else here.

If you don't acknowledge the requirments said in this post I can't be interested.

Basic: like tinder! I just can't see u or ur location until u show it. I'll come back now and then and check, don't underestimate it's definitely something I want. Why I don't use tinder? Not as genuine

Normally, I'd unpack this, but she unpacked herself as she leaned against the stone wall. Still. Cold. Indifferent. The rain drops came down outside, rhythmically -- like a deer bashing its head against an inebriated homeless man's ballsack, still 'stuck in the headlights' as if a real life, reality glitch happened.

1

2

1

She distinctly heard the rain drops -- loud, present,

not in weight.

But in silence.

She lifted herself, feeling her heavy tired body collapse upward as her boobs flinged forward. She took a step forward onto the cold stone floor, feeling how many times she had stepped in circles, with her bare feet, feet. She sighed, no one could hear it -- because it was the silent part out loud, --and that was contradicting.

But honestly? That wasn't contradiction, it was her finally breathing.

Sacred.

But unfortunately her corset buttons all popped off, flying in different directions. -- This led her to an unprecedented surge of freedom in it's truest form

She stormed into the jail cell

but because she was the type, -- naturally -- gifted in finding out the hidden things from within others.

She hit it from within.

Collapsing on the ground, but it was the most stable. She ever felt. See, her great grandmother's older brothers dad had lain on this floor once, she could still smell his tongue across it.

That's when it hit, time was an illusion and time travel was real.

But one thing that had not changed: it always moved forward.

---

Do I continue this?

Ps. Not written with ai, this was genuine creativity

I will treat you like a cat

All boundaries are respected, until I know what's okay.

I know (from experience) this is as simple as just meeting someone, cuddling, and going about life.

✨about me: ✨ In USA. Want someone who understands seeing someone first, is most important. Show a photo of yourself, enough to identify if we met.

Good hygiene required, respectful, not looking for something else, don't need to be my age but close in either direction accepted.

If you don't acknowledge the requirments said in this post, you will likely be ignored. I don't want to waste my time.

Feel free to browse the comments to see more about my personality and bring popcorn 😝 this why girls use other apps!