u/MCKC1992

I have been experiencing blood in my stool regularly

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2/21) 4:15pm - black stool with tinge of red in toilet

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2/22) 9:54pm - black stool

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2/24)9:12am - blood in tissue after wiping after passing gas

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2/24) 10:29pm - loose stool with tinge of red in toilet water

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2/25) 11:50pm - black stool

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3/16) 8:11pm - black stool

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3/30) 11:10pm - tiny tinge of blood is soft, loose stool

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5/30) 1:33am - small amount of slimy coagulated blood at the top of loose runny stool

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6/1) 11:37am - small amount of slimy blood at the top of loose, runny stool (previous bowel movement earlier that morning was also loose but there was no presence of blood)

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6/3) 7:20pm - very very small trace of blood at the top of stool

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6/7 6:50pm - noticed an incredibly tiny amount of blood when wiping

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6/9 3:31pm - noticed an incredibly tiny amount of blood in stool

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6/14 1:15pm - noticed a small amounts of blood in my stool

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I'm a bi black man and I'm growing to hate Black men.

I am a fat dark skinned Black man and I see tons of White and mixed guys my size or bigger who can get Black men and I can't get a single one.

This is communicating to me that Black men desire nonBlackness over all things and tbh it's sickening.

I am losing care for them because they don't like, desire or perfer Blackness.

The gay and bi Black men are as antiBlack in who they desire as the straight Black men.

I am losing my mind fearing the possibility of having a GI cancer. Some of the symptoms that I'm dealing with would be abdominal pain, blood in my stool or small amounts of blood at the top of my bowel movement and stool that's inconsistent in texture.

I've had an upper GI endoscopy and colonoscopy with biopsies which came back normal but I'm worried about how I'm still having symptoms. What other test should I ask my doctors to run? Is there any type of blood work they should do? Is there any type of stool sample test that they should take?

I'm a severely depressed person whohates everything about their life and themselves. Over the last few years I have come to see just how much I dissociate simply to make it through the day.

I know that dissociating is very much so your mind trying to survive a traumatic experience.. but I hate how much I have to associate. I reached the point where I see dissociating as nothing more than proof of how horrific my life is.

I always think to myself about how if I were not so sad or so lonely, I would not have to dissociate it as much.

I want to buy a ring from an online Australian retailer (Drift Culture) but they don't ship to the US. Any suggestions as to what I can do?

I'm too depressed for too many details. All I can say is life sucks when no one finds you attractive.

Its so depression.

I feel so sad.