u/Mad----Scientist

This software everytime will take you a week of full time debugging to get working fuck it

Assalamualaikum and thank you for caring to read this.

I've been dealing with a health condition for 4 years named pelvic floor dysfunction and it is destroying my life if i wasn't muslim i swear i would have killed myself a long time ago.

Doctors in Morocco are mostly arrogant morrons with zero competence, they suck like, i swear i went to over 10 specialists i lost count of them, urologists, neurologists, imagine they don't even know that "pelvic floor tightness" is a thing, a health condition that you can type on google and get millions of results, they never heard of it, they give me medications for overactive bladder and other stuff for months and when i come back with literally zero improvement, they give me same medications for prolonged periods.

I diagnosed myself because no one of them could since they don't even know the condition exist, i'm pretty sure of my condition because i feel the tightness in that muscle and i have experienced all its symptoms that those motherfucking doctors say "they are normal" like how the fuck is erectile dysfunction normal? How is post ejaculation severe pain normal? How is difficulty peeing normal? There is no single case i found of overactive bladder doing these symptoms, yet they say it's the problem, until i did a medical test in Rabat for 4000 dh that showed that my bladder is actually fine and has no problems.

The worst thing is this happened to me while i'm student, i'm still student, been dealing with this since bac year when i was SM, and it destroys my sleep quality, i cannot pay attention in class or in my house when i study, because i wake up frequently to go to toilet at night, and many times i can't go back to sleep, let that the pelvic floor muscles never relax i almost get zero deep sleep, i got this condition in my peak years for studying when the brain is in its prime.. i hate this it feels unlucky as fuck.

I fear that if this continues i will get Alzheimer's at 30 years old because 4 years of poor sleep and many years to come sadly, my brain is already damaged physically and mentally.

I feel hopless in this fucking country i hate it so much no good free healthcare even private paid one is ass i've seen people online with my same conditions get asked weird questions and finally found why they are sick, some got this condition from poor muscles coordination, some because weak core muscles and hyper mobility, some from just breathing patterns (chest breathing), you know how many of these possible causes these ass Moroccan doctors asked me? ZERO, NONE, NOT A SINGLE ONE, They were sure it's overactive bladder, but when the bladder turned out to be healthy, they just said i must seek a psychiatrist, like what the fuck are we doing here? They didn't even eliminate 1% of possible physical problems to doubt mental problems.

I just don't know what to do, is there a way to go to some EU country and get health care? Could it be free somehow because i lost over 25k dh in just past 4 years and my family isn't high income one to be able to afford EU euro rates, i don't even know if i can go there legally...

If you have any advice please don't hesitate to tell me, all ideas are welcome, anything can potentially help.

Thank you for caring to read.

PS: I'm currently 21 years old.

I know here ai posts are disliked but i really need help and just thoughts from more experienced people. I'm still a student with 2 years before graduation with great passion for systems programming especially operating systems and been learning them for a while now and of course, rust has been a joy to learn and use, but recently I just found myself unmotivated, I feel like, what if AI get much better than what it is now, with fable and that shit. and what if they focus more on optimizing that it start costing way cheaper, i feel lost, unmotivated, asking myself what's the point if all my skills and study time became worthless.. especially that i have adhd and i really love and hyperfocus on things that i love, and thinking about switching career feels like torture to me, not that i financially can but even if i could it would be miserable.. I just wish llms never existed.

I'm still a student with 2 years before graduation with great passion for systems programming especially operating systems and been learning them for a while now, recently I just found myself unmotivated, I feel like, what if AI get much better than what it is now, with fable and that shit. and what if they focus more on optimizing that it start costing way cheaper, i feel lost, unmotivated, asking myself what's the point if all my skills and study time became worthless.. especially that i have adhd and i really love and hyperfocus on things that i love, and thinking about switching career feels like torture to me, not that i financially can but even if i could it would be miserable.. I just wish llms never existed.

I have this problem with kitty on wayland where if i press a key and long hold after it another key, that long hold counts as a normal press, types the character once, i need to wait some delay then long hold for it to work fine...

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In other terminal emulators this isn't a problem, but i still want to use kitty

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Is there a solution?