u/Maidassatainu

Hi fellas, How are you?

I am 27 and for some reason i don’t feel drunk anymore. When I drink I can feel that there is alcohol in my body and can get a headache if i drink too much but don’t feel anything. I loved coming home to have one beer and listen to old music. My favorite thing was adding a whiskey shot in my beer and just smoke a cigarette in the winters outside,Belmont if you are Canadian. I used to feel stuff, get lost in my mind, never felt the need to express or talk to people that much you know. It happened all of sudden and it’s been more than a year now.

I also don’t feel many emotions anymore be it watching movies, going out, playing video games, being with gf, being with friends. Nothing. I also don’t feel much stress or anxiety. I was recently in a fight, it wasn’t my fault but i didn’t feel anything. Like literally nothing. I was driving and some bike guy crashed, i helped him, he was fine but I didn’t feel anything. my memory has also become weak like my brain doesn’t want to register much stuff. I went to this trip with random group for 10 days, I had fun but didn’t feel anything. Sceneries didn’t inspire me, Didn’t feel the need to make connections. I don’t know how to explain. Radiohead playing in my head with any emotions rn.

Songs that had memories, took me on a ride every time i listen to, they don’t work anymore. Lyrics don’t hit, nothing is inspirational. Did something broke? i tell you i was in a bad phase for 3 years and in constant fear. One day I had an outburst and stuff happened, after few months of that this all started. I can’t even cry if i want to now. I have tried.

I was the kid who was effortlessly good at most things. I am not even evil. Like i believe the innate human desire is to help others.

I used to think I have many friends but seriously can’t talk to any of them. I can’t express even if i wanted to , i don’t want to talk to them. I tried therapy but i don’t want to go through it anymore. I just want to know will it be fixed? have you experienced this?

There are much more stuff i wish i could write, could phrase and explain better, but i don’t want to go and change and articulate better. I know this is a some sort of depression, idk. How long will it pass. I want to enjoy life. Music with nice company. Please You can ask me stuff if you want to.

Hi fellas, How are you?

I am 27 and for some reason i don’t feel drunk anymore. When I drink I can feel that there is alcohol in my body and can get a headache if i drink too much but don’t feel anything. I loved coming home to have one beer and listen to old music. My favorite thing was adding a whiskey shot in my beer and just smoke a cigarette in the winters outside,Belmont if you are Canadian. I used to feel stuff, get lost in my mind, never felt the need to express or talk to people that much you know. It happened all of sudden and it’s been more than a year now.

I also don’t feel many emotions anymore be it watching movies, going out, playing video games, being with gf, being with friends. Nothing. I also don’t feel much stress or anxiety. I was recently in a fight, it wasn’t my fault but i didn’t feel anything. Like literally nothing. I was driving and some bike guy crashed, i helped him, he was fine but I didn’t feel anything. my memory has also become weak like my brain doesn’t want to register much stuff. I went to this trip with random group for 10 days, I had fun but didn’t feel anything. Sceneries didn’t inspire me, Didn’t feel the need to make connections. I don’t know how to explain. Radiohead playing in my head with any emotions rn.

Songs that had memories, took me on a ride every time i listen to, they don’t work anymore. Lyrics don’t hit, nothing is inspirational. Did something broke? i tell you i was in a bad phase for 3 years and in constant fear. One day I had an outburst and stuff happened, after few months of that this all started. I can’t even cry if i want to now. I have tried.

I was the kid who was effortlessly good at most things. I am not even evil. Like i believe the innate human desire is to help others.

I used to think I have many friends but seriously can’t talk to any of them. I can’t express even if i wanted to , i don’t want to talk to them. I tried therapy but i don’t want to go through it anymore. I just want to know will it be fixed? have you experienced this?

There are much more stuff i wish i could write, could phrase and explain better, but i don’t want to go and change and articulate better. I know this is a some sort of depression, idk. How long will it pass. I want to enjoy life. Music with nice company. Please You can ask me stuff if you want to.

Hi fellas, How are you?

I am 27 and for some reason i don’t feel drunk anymore. When I drink I can feel that there is alcohol in my body and can get a headache if i drink too much but don’t feel anything. I loved coming home to have one beer and listen to old music. My favorite thing was adding a whiskey shot in my beer and just smoke a cigarette in the winters outside,Belmont if you are Canadian. I used to feel stuff, get lost in my mind, never felt the need to express or talk to people that much you know. It happened all of sudden and it’s been more than a year now.

I also don’t feel many emotions anymore be it watching movies, going out, playing video games, being with gf, being with friends. Nothing. I also don’t feel much stress or anxiety. I was recently in a fight, it wasn’t my fault but i didn’t feel anything. Like literally nothing. I was driving and some bike guy crashed, i helped him, he was fine but I didn’t feel anything. my memory has also become weak like my brain doesn’t want to register much stuff. I went to this trip with random group for 10 days, I had fun but didn’t feel anything. Sceneries didn’t inspire me, Didn’t feel the need to make connections. I don’t know how to explain. Radiohead playing in my head with any emotions rn.

Songs that had memories, took me on a ride every time i listen to, they don’t work anymore. Lyrics don’t hit, nothing is inspirational. Did something broke? i tell you i was in a bad phase for 3 years and in constant fear. One day I had an outburst and stuff happened, after few months of that this all started. I can’t even cry if i want to now. I have tried.

I was the kid who was effortlessly good at most things. I am not even evil. Like i believe the innate human desire is to help others.

I used to think I have many friends but seriously can’t talk to any of them. I can’t express even if i wanted to , i don’t want to talk to them. I tried therapy but i don’t want to go through it anymore. I just want to know will it be fixed? have you experienced this?

There are much more stuff i wish i could write, could phrase and explain better, but i don’t want to go and change and articulate better. I know this is a some sort of depression, idk. How long will it pass. I want to enjoy life. Music with nice company. Please You can ask me stuff if you want to.

Hi Everyone, I don’t know where I should start so lemme give you a run down.

Since I have had any memory of my Dad, I remember two people. One is this awesome guy who always wants to dance, buy everyone gifts, always cracking jokes and someone who is really kind. The other Guy is always angry, breaks stuff, always on the edge and hates everyone. Deep down I know he is the first guy even without the alcohol. But can’t get him out without the booze. Also, He served in the military for 30 years. When we used to hangout with him, he was drunk most of the time after work so we have good memories with him, well mostly. I really love him so much. He even made me and my brother drink with him since we were very young, not alot but just some to “be a man” as he says. Not a problem, my brother and I have alot of control with alcohol now due to this. It runs deep in our family, every generation has served in the military except me and my brother.

Last year, I was in Canada when I got the most horrifying call of my life. My dad had a brain stroke and a heart attack and fell in the washroom. He was in coma for 3 days, then he was saved by god, even doctor said it was a miracle. This was so traumatic for us and especially for my mother. She really loves him. We found out that Dad has developed brain tumour and the doctor has strictly prohibited alcohol and cigarette sticks. He quit cigarettes immediately as he had done in the past. He was very weak initially, so he didn’t say anything but like in 2-3 weeks in recovery he started asking for drinks. We literally threw all the bottles and everything out. But, my Dad started calling me and said he will bang his head on the wall if we don’t let him drink, said he will run away and never come back. We love him and worry for him so much. My uncle requested my mom to just let him have one drink and reluctantly she agreed. My Dad literally started recovering. He loves Fitness and Tracking calories. He believes as long as he does certain amount of steps and hits 120g of protein, he can drink rest of his calories. Now, he has started drinking 3 drinks everyday, 60 ml each Whiskey/Rum.
He has hid the bottles in the house in so many places. We are shit scared to have this talk with him again. One gaze and all of us shit our pants. He won’t tell us anything if something feels off, he gets weak or anything, he is literally going to wait for the last moment. Man I don’t know what to do here.