u/Maika_F

I am looking for someone that's from the OKC area that would be willing to chat and answer some questions.

So I am in San Diego for a conference this week and I had planned on spending at least on evening entirely as my true self. Having traveled with a coworker I knew this could possibly be a little risky, but I was hoping the hotel wouldn’t put our rooms near each other. Sadly we are right next door to each other. Due to where I work I haven’t come out to anyone, and my coworker is a complete homophobe and won’t talk to his own child that came out as nonbinary.

I was really looking forward to my time as Maika. Before the trip I pampered myself by getting a full body wax, I love how smooth I feel, I great mani/pedi to include a cute and sexy nail color. I have booked an appointment for makeup and a hair style.

Now I don’t know what to do. I’m tired of living in fear of wanting to be me, but I also cannot afford to lose my job. I would love to hear any advice, suggestions or opinions.

So I've been asked by some friends to go out to a club in a couple of weeks. This will be the first time i have ever been to a club, I usually just go to bars. I need to get a outfit for the night, I love shopping and trying on different outfits. Now to the point of wanting to cry. I am pre hrt and in my mid 40s, so I am very masculine looking and sadly overweight. I have no breasts, so I rely on breast forms for that feminine look. Unfortunately so far every dress or top that I can get in time have very low neckline. I really feel like my current body shape is holding me back and it just makes me want to curl up in a ball and cry.