When love turns into physical abuse
So... writing this with a heavy heart and lots of tears in my eyes....I faced and felt something that I never wanted to...so I am in a relationship with a guy for more than 2 years and it is going to be 3 years in this month only....I had blind faith in him i believed that he would never talk to any girl as he made me block my each and every male friend I was or I am so in love with him...that I never saw any thing wrong in him he was like a god to me i use to fast for this health and welfare use to touch his feets as if he is my husband....one day I was at my home there was a wedding at my home and I was unable to talk to him.properly then he talked with his female bestie about oyo and all which I didn't like somehow he managed to make me understand at that time again I was at my home for 1 week the night I left the station he masg a girl who is showing her cleavage and her butts in her instagram posts he messaged her that " Which gym you usually go you have a nice figure"....he use to like posts of the girls at insta I have questioned several times but I never made an issue out of it....I was in a car with him when I found out about this message as it was forgotten to be deleted I saw those messages and he snatched his mobile phone from my hand and started shouting at me - how many times I have told you not to check my phone....I was stunned at that moment it was the moment which felt like I was living in betrayal....we have booked an Airbnb where we had to stay for the day....he started saying that - we are not going to the room other wise you will shout at me and many other things to me that were mean....and I was in shock...I was feeling that I had lost him which was the worst feeling ever..
I convinced him to go upstairs as I wanted to spend that last day with him...we went to the room he doesn't say anything like no sorry or anything....he undressed me and started having s*x with me and I was still in shock i didn't feel anything my face was reactionless throughout..... he was my face but he didn't stop there he has done everything that he wanted to do....and at last he didn't even asked why I am not saying anything or not reacting at all...that felt like a rape to me....I was crying from inside i thought he would apologise but he didn't i started crying and I cried for straight 2 or 3 hours and all he said was - why are you crying so much did I sleep with her? Again he convinced me and I stopped crying and again he has done the same thing he started having s*x with me and again I wasn't able to stop him....and I am still with that person because i cannot live without him...I love him a lot but he is not the same person anymore ....it hurts a lot a lot 💔