u/Master_Lawyer_2512

Or at least I did. Its hard to believe your words whenever your actions speak the volumes almost as loud as you do when I acknowledge them. Pretend all you want but I never could. I am so tired of being scared, scared of you leaving and scared of the fight. Didn't this time, when you beat these knots in my head teach you or will it take you cheating again because you and I have different feelings on what it means to cheat and I don't deserve the way you treat me you cant live with one foot out the door and complain because I ask you to shut it I don't think I am in love anymore so my emotions might be everywhere and I break shit when you treat me like I am nothing for days or weeks when you ruin anything special every holiday you ruin and you don't have to be here you wanted my normal life well you broke me and my life but as long as your happy everything is okay right if I shut up let you run all over me and complain because I gave up so i break shit but you broke me first and I can replace and have if you knew how to be honest you could stop playing the victim and take your own accountability for ripping us apart because I gave you the honesty you never really wanted so I bow out and I just want to be numb but if you cant be happy then go find someone else to love because its going to hurt me to hate you but loving you is worse

You can't even let me sleep in peace, I really don't think there's anything left for us nothing special no future, just dreams becoming broken promises left here in this limbo until your just the monster in my nightmares, the judgment i seemed to have lacked, your emptiness and anger felt more each day until I give up and then I feel your wrath. Tell me something, I would try anything to get back what we lost or start again forget about our past we both get a redo. Maybe we make it work this time or honestly I can't get it out of my head that we should just shake hands and walk away before we have only hate left between us i sadly see it more everyday