u/Mcgoobro

remember in grade 7 I first saw her. I thought she was funny, much more different than any other girl. Loud and weird in a good way, like how I was and still am. Loud and maybe too much, as she always chased my friend as I would run too. As time went on she was in my grade 8 class and we started to talk, but not in a romantic way. I would just make a fool of myself a lot and do some outlandish stuff, but she thought it was super funny. She would even quote me and draw little pictures of me. She likes cars like me, but she likes F1 and hockey. I’m not big into those, but I still like them a bit. We also share the same birthday, October 7, so we would call each other birthday buddies and have our own little handshake where we spin around and slap our butts. LOL.
I remember she also drew me on the class board all buff, and I drew her next to me as well. She liked the drawing. We both had the same type of humor, and at the time I liked her, but the longer we talked the more we were like friends. We would have this sister-brother kind of relationship, as her brother had the same birthday. She started to talk to other guys at the end of the year. At our graduation camp she liked this guy (I won’t say his name, but he’s chill and I’m friends with him). Other than that he’s not too good with relationships. She crushed on this guy during the camp and asked me for help. I just swallowed it and said okay. I felt almost jealous for the first time.
Something weird happened during camp. I was playing basketball with my friends, and a lot of people teased us about our relationship. She was sitting on the court as I was shooting, and she said, “Come sit with me. I miss my favourite birthday buddy.” I was like, “Yeah, give me a sec.” I went and sat down. She wanted to hold hands and put our feet together, which was the first time I’d ever held a girl’s hand. I let go, not paying too much attention to it. One of my friends was saying that I like her as she passed us, and this mega asshole said, “He likes you.” I said, “Bro, I don’t. She’s like my sister.” Even she got defensive about it, like me denying it.
After grad we went to high school. She added me on TikTok as well, and she was with the guy. I told her it wasn’t going to be a good idea because the guy didn’t even care to ask her out. I was thinking, “What a pussy.” They broke up. I also heard they kissed, and when I heard they broke up I almost lost it. I was thinking, “What did he do to her?” I went to this guy all pressed, and he said he wasn’t being a good boyfriend and not asking her out. It was literally the thing I told her about.
I also remember after grad we had our tour of the high school. As a prank I went in her house and hid in her closet, scaring her. She didn’t seem too mad. She found it funny, but thinking about it now I think it’s really weird I did that. Even before, she would say weird stuff to me like “I wanna smash you,” all teasing. One time she said, “When you get home, imagine us connecting our brains and showering together,” since that night I said I was going to shower.
On her birthday I got her an F1 Lego set early because I couldn’t wait, and got her an F1 5-pack thing. She was super happy. Recently she doesn’t really talk to me much. She doesn’t hate me, but it’s died down a bit. I gave her a bunch of my old hockey cards. I asked if I should leave them at the door and she said just leave it at the mailbox and said “Thanks champ.” I felt a little disappointed for an odd reason.
I’ve been thinking of getting her a gift this year, but I feel fucking pathetic doing it. I feel it’s a pointless act. I love her a lot and want to take her out. I wanna spoil her, have my first kiss. I want to comfort her in her dark days. I just want to be someone for her and a person to love. But I feel I’m too weird and that could be a thing that pushed her back.
The only thing that gave me hope sounds stupid, but I was walking in the hall with my friend who liked her. She was looking away, looking a bit shy or embarrassed. I was munching on vegetables and said, “Do you want one?” She’s like, “Ouu, me?” She opens her hands as I throw her one. She makes a little yelling sound as a joke as it hits the floor. I don’t know if I’m fucking thinking too much, but she picked it up and put it on a small little piece of clothing like she was saving it. I didn’t want to think too much about it because she was probably just going to throw it away.
I know if this sounds stupid you can make fun of me, but I genuinely need help. Anything.

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