u/Medical_Respect_5713

Right now my brain is so fked up I can even type, I am UG first year student, I am an average student, but my life is worst and the reason is nothing other than myself. I am not gonna blame anyone other than me. I wasted my time and I wasted my life. I am addicted to this technology, I just want break from all this, but my brain constantly craves and give up easily, without any struggle. I dont know what to do, all this time I always someone to rant to and also guide me to, now there is no one. I cant rant to ppl about my problems bcos they have their own problem, some of them are have it worst than me. And nobody can guide since in school 99% ppl have the same path it was easy to guide, after joining ug, everyone looks alien to me and each of them have different lives. And man the guilt of not succeeding is to much, bcos I literally have everything and my father is working his ass off to provide for us, the worst part is not the failure or the fear of scolding for them, but breaking the belief they kept on me, they believe me some much and that even when I fked up something, they nvr scolds me they only advice me. God what happened to me, and the worst part is I have everything and can start whenever I want and change my life, but I cant. This all feels to heavy.
My brain is fogged rn, I wanna escape all these noises, I need some break from all these but ik I will never get that. I wish everything changes.
Is there any way to change? Or is this the true reality? Am I overreacting?

Right now my brain is so fked up I can even type, I am UG first year student, I am an average student, but my life is worst and the reason is nothing other than myself. I am not gonna blame anyone other than me. I wasted my time and I wasted my life. I am addicted to this technology, I just want break from all this, but my brain constantly craves and give up easily, without any struggle. I dont know what to do, all this time I always someone to rant to and also guide me to, now there is no one. I cant rant to ppl about my problems bcos they have their own problem, some of them are have it worst than me. And nobody can guide since in school 99% ppl have the same path it was easy to guide, after joining ug, everyone looks alien to me and each of them have different lives. And man the guilt of not succeeding is to much, bcos I literally have everything and my father is working his ass off to provide for us, the worst part is not the failure or the fear of scolding for them, but breaking the belief they kept on me, they believe me some much and that even when I fked up something, they nvr scolds me they only advice me. God what happened to me, and the worst part is I have everything and can start whenever I want and change my life, but I cant. This all feels to heavy.
My brain is fogged rn, I wanna escape all these noises, I need some break from all these but ik I will never get that. I wish everything changes.
Is there any way to change? Or is this the true reality? Am I overreacting?

Right now my brain is so fked up I can even type, I am UG first year student, I am an average student, but my life is worst and the reason is nothing other than myself. I am not gonna blame anyone other than me. I wasted my time and I wasted my life. I am addicted to this technology, I just want break from all this, but my brain constantly craves and give up easily, without any struggle. I dont know what to do, all this time I always someone to rant to and also guide me to, now there is no one. I cant rant to ppl about my problems bcos they have their own problem, some of them are have it worst than me. And nobody can guide since in school 99% ppl have the same path it was easy to guide, after joining ug, everyone looks alien to me and each of them have different lives. And man the guilt of not succeeding is to much, bcos I literally have everything and my father is working his ass off to provide for us, the worst part is not the failure or the fear of scolding for them, but breaking the belief they kept on me, they believe me some much and that even when I fked up something, they nvr scolds me they only advice me. God what happened to me, and the worst part is I have everything and can start whenever I want and change my life, but I cant. This all feels to heavy.
My brain is fogged rn, I wanna escape all these noises, I need some break from all these but ik I will never get that. I wish everything changes.
Is there any way to change? Or is this the true reality? Am I overreacting?

Right now my brain is so fked up I can even type, I am UG first year student, I am an average student, but my life is worst and the reason is nothing other than myself. I am not gonna blame anyone other than me. I wasted my time and I wasted my life. I am addicted to this technology, I just want break from all this, but my brain constantly craves and give up easily, without any struggle. I dont know what to do, all this time I always someone to rant to and also guide me to, now there is no one. I cant rant to ppl about my problems bcos they have their own problem, some of them are have it worst than me. And nobody can guide since in school 99% ppl have the same path it was easy to guide, after joining ug, everyone looks alien to me and each of them have different lives. And man the guilt of not succeeding is to much, bcos I literally have everything and my father is working his ass off to provide for us, the worst part is not the failure or the fear of scolding for them, but breaking the belief they kept on me, they believe me some much and that even when I fked up something, they nvr scolds me they only advice me. God what happened to me, and the worst part is I have everything and can start whenever I want and change my life, but I cant. This all feels to heavy.
My brain is fogged rn, I wanna escape all these noises, I need some break from all these but ik I will never get that. I wish everything changes.
Is there any way to change? Or is this the true reality? Am I overreacting?

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I mean Ai has helped me a lot in studying and I am confused/suprised how did I even study or got help when I was stuck with a question and got an answer when there was no AI to help (before Ai and all came). And that made me wonder, if i got too comfortable using AI and stopped thinking harder or try to struggle to solve something, it is like if I am stuck somewhere I would try it 2 or 3 times and instantly give and ask AI for the solution and with coding its worse, I subconsciously use AI too much. And worse cheating in exams in even worse that too on online exam and offline proctored exam which are done in PC's like coding exams, bcos ppl just finds a loophole and gets the answer in fraction of second using AI, before AI era even if u cheat u cant find anything on the internet, u can only find like instructions or how to use it, now its too easy. It is like a building a Lego before u r given a instruction/advice from a person on how to build it, now it is like someone literally builds it for u for free. It is feels useful and unfair at the same time. Whats ur take on this? and any solution to stop depending on AI to much??