The way you think i feel about you is so far from how I feel

Because I know within myself that what I felt for you was real.

And just because we arent together doesnt mean that I dont care

No one can ever take away all of the memories we share.

It hurts to know that im alot to blame for how you feel inside

Or how I amplified your trust issues

I should have never lied.

But I appreciate all that you are and how much that you tried

You have so much to offer

Theres so much you can achieve

You need to take this time to self reflect instead of people please

Right now your in a hole of darkness

Being used by everyone

And they will all keep taking from you

Til everything you have is gone

You will feel so happy inside when your clean with a clear mind

And everything will fall in place

And You'll be concious of the signs

You'll feel proud and love yourself again

This i know for sure

So dont be scared to close this chapter

Straight aheads an open door

Do you even know what your sorry for?

Or does the word roll of your tongue just as effortlessly as the insults do?

Every word spoken with malice intent

Like sharp blades piercing my ears and stabbing my chest as I process every syllable of every word your shouting.

Your eyes are black so I look down.

Too scared to make eye contact knowing the next contact will be your fist forcing my vision into darkness.

Your words imprinted inside my head just a constant reminder of how I should feel about myself. Its effective.

Like ink penetrating scar tissue are your insults on my mind, 1 after the other each time deeper and deeper, painfully reopening a wound to ensure the ink won't fade.

Branding me with an essence of you to ensure I'm too damaged to ever find the strength to escape. Conditioned enough to believe all that your saying. Your words like chains, completely weighing me down until I have nothing left .

I don't hate you though. I feel compassion for what you must have gone through to have learnt this type of behaviour and relieved that its me and not another young girl that's too naive to read the play.

Do you even know what your sorry for?

Or does the word roll of your tongue just as effortlessly as the insults do?

Every word spoken with malice intent

Like sharp blades piercing my ears and stabbing my chest as I process every syllable of every word your shouting.

Your eyes are black so I look down.

Too scared to make eye contact knowing the next contact will be your fist forcing my vision into darkness.

Your words imprinted inside my head just a constant reminder of how I should feel about myself. Its effective.

Like ink penetrating scar tissue are your insults on my mind, 1 after the other each time deeper and deeper, painfully reopening a wound to ensure the ink won't fade.

Branding me with an essence of you to ensure I'm too damaged to ever find the strength to escape. Conditioned enough to believe all that your saying. Your words like chains, completely weighing me down until I have nothing left .

I don't hate you though. I feel compassion for what you must have gone through to have learnt this type of behaviour and relieved that its me and not another young girl that's too naive to read the play.

A letter to My daughter on the day she arrived :)№

The moment my eyes met yours and your skin touched mine changed me forever.

You were comforted by the familiar sound of my heartbeat, while my bare skin kept yours warm.

In awe as i held you, I waited for this moment my whole life

I examined you from head to toe over and over again, soaking every part of you in. Perfection was all i saw and love was all i felt. For the first time in my life i finally understood what unconditional love meant.

In an instant you became my everything and nothing else in this world mattered. I promise to love and protect you in this life and the next. Thankyou for choosing me xx

A letter to My daughter on the day she arrived :)№

The moment my eyes met yours and your skin touched mine changed me forever.

You were comforted by the familiar sound of my heartbeat, while my bare skin kept yours warm.

In awe as i held you, I waited for this moment my whole life

I examined you from head to toe over and over again, soaking every part of you in. Perfection was all i saw and love was all i felt. For the first time in my life i finally understood what unconditional love meant.

In an instant you became my everything and nothing else in this world mattered. I promise to love and protect you in this life and the next.

Thankyou for choosing me xx

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The moment my eyes met yours and your skin touched mine changed me forever.

You were comforted by the familiar sound of my heartbeat, while my bare skin kept yours warm.

In awe as i held you, I waited for this moment my whole life

I examined you from head to toe over and over again, soaking every part of you in. Perfection was all i saw and love was all i felt. For the first time in my life i finally understood what unconditional love meant.

In an instant you became my everything and nothing else in this world mattered. I promise to love and protect you in this life and the next.

Thankyou for choosing me xx

I never thought it would be this long that we would be apart. And the longer time goes on the less it's weighing on my heart. I guess it's not right what they say about the growing fonder par. I'm finding myself thinking about walking away.

I can't forget while I was pregnant all the shit you put me through and yet you want us to uproot our lives and move to be with you What makes you think that you deserve to have your cake and eat it too Can't think of many reasons I would want to stay

But I'm afraid that if I fly these wings won't take me very high Forgotten how to be who I use to be And I'm afraid that if I fall I know that I could lose it all Could I provide for her and give her what she needs

I fought for us so long now that your all I've grown to know So the prospect of that changing makes it hard to let you go I'm only holding on to us so I don't feel like I'm alone The love I had for you is fading every day.

It's time for me to reclaim what once use to be my life Instead of holding on to hope that one day I will be your wife The infidelity just proves you have a tendency to stray And thats how I know that I have to walk away.

1. Rumination https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/comments/vjn51z/rumination/?utm\_medium=android\_app&utm\_source=share

2. Till the End https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/comments/vjowwi/till\_the\_end/?utm\_medium=android\_app&utm\_source=share

I never thought it would be this long that we would be apart. And the longer time goes on the less it's weighing on my heart. I guess it's not right what they say about the growing fonder par. I'm finding myself thinking about walking away.

I can't forget while I was pregnant all the shit you put me through and yet you want us to uproot our lives and move to be with you What makes you think that you deserve to have your cake and eat it too Can't think of many reasons I would want to stay

But I'm afraid that if I fly these wings won't take me very high Forgotten how to be who I use to be And I'm afraid that if I fall I know that I could lose it all Could I provide for her and give her what she needs

I fought for us so long now that your all I've grown to know So the prospect of that changing makes it hard to let you go I'm only holding on to us so I don't feel like I'm alone The love I had for you is fading every day.

It's time for me to reclaim what once use to be my life Instead of holding on to hope that one day I will be your wife The infidelity just proves you have a tendency to stray And thats how I know that I have to walk away.

1. Rumination https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/comments/vjn51z/rumination/?utm\_medium=android\_app&utm\_source=share

2. Till the End https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/comments/vjowwi/till\_the\_end/?utm\_medium=android\_app&utm\_source=share

-I wish I knew the words you need to hear to set you free

-Right now its evident how low your self-esteem must be.

-That boy you thinks a man is only a man in your eyes

-Your the only 1 too blind to see straight through his lies.

-I thought that once you saw he has a wife you'd cut it loose

- Your actions they speak volumes i dont care for your excuse.

-His always got his hand out

Ready to take all that he can

-He intimidates the weak

And thinks thats what makes a man

-Your a topic of conversation. Your the side chick and the whore.

- You broke my heart when you chose him

And left your morals at the door.

-I wish I knew the words you need to hear to set you free

-Right now its evident how low your self-esteem must be.

-That boy you thinks a man is only a man in your eyes

-Your the only 1 too blind to see straight through his lies.

-I thought that once you saw he has a wife you'd cut it loose

-Now I'm just embarrassed you've continued to see the goose

-His always got his hand out

Ready to take all that he can

-He intimidates the vulnerable

And believes that makes a man

-Your a topic of conversation. Your the side chick and the whore.

-I cant even bring myself to defend you

Our values don't align anymore.

You try to wash the stains away

They left under your skin

-You bleed trying to scrub away the shame

You feel within.

-Every day you get fucked up until your numb all over

-The only thing you dread in life is ever being sober.

-You pray that later on in life your daughter understands

-And takes from it a knowing one should never trust the man.

-They took a piece of you and what they left forever changed

-Left you laying naked and confused  by the  blood stains.

-No more trust in people you prefer to stay inside

You try to wash the stains away

They left under your skin

-You bleed trying to scrub away the shame

You feel within.

-Every day you get fucked up until your numb all over

-The only thing you dread in life is ever being sober.

-You pray that later on in life your daughter understands

-And takes from it a knowing one should never trust the man.

-They took a piece of you and what they left forever changed

-Left you laying naked and confused  by the  blood stains.

-No more trust in people you prefer to stay inside

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-You try to wash the stains away

They left under your skin

-You bleed trying to scrub away the shame

You feel within.

-Every day you get fucked up until your numb all over

-The only thing you dread in life is ever being sober.

-You pray that later on in life your daughter understands

-And takes from it a knowing one should never trust the man.

-They took a piece of you and what they left forever changed

-Left you laying naked and confused  by the  blood stains.

-No more trust in people you prefer to stay inside

-Victim shaming so bad that its easier to hide.