u/MidnightMuch1784

I took the health insurance, starting date is from Sep1, while the date of departure in the IRCC application I submitted as Sep 30, is it gonna cause any issue in terms of approval?

Okay, I have been bottling up for a while and I desperately need to vent.

I met my husband 10 years ago and 8 of them being married. Little backstory, I am a simple human without any interest in branded bags or makeup. I dont do makeup and always buy clothes from Winners (Canada). I never asked for expensive gifts and I never buy them myself either, because in my opinion they dont matter. All these to say I am not materialistic. We both make good money and it is not an issue. But I strongly believe he hates me. Maybe I am unlovable and unworthy, dont have anyone in my life to talk either, so venting here.

My life and our conversations have been mostly around house logistics and kids and nothing more. Every single time I tried to talk to him about the emotional void he gets defensive and says thats what happens when being together for long. I am not even asking for date nights and trips, my requests are when I am trying to talk about anything I want him not to look at his phone and pay attention to me, but no conversation ever happens without him whipping his phone in 60 seconds. Even when I am excited about something and run to him to share he just sits plainly and looks into his phone saying 'thats great". Is it normal? May be I am overreacting? If I get mad or cry, he gets irritated and stops talking (I dont talk either). After few days he starts speaking like nothing ever happened. He is respectful to everyone else, and from outside it seems like a perfect man doing everything right by his family. No one will even believe if I say something. For example, when i say i want t go someplace that opens only i summer this weekend, he says okay and plans something else and never bring up where I wished to go ( I asked for a garden center). Another time, when I was actually shopping for accessories in a street market festival, he just said to shop myself and he waited in the car. But I want to show him and get his opinion or may be small words like "it looks good on me" etc. May be this is all normal and I am overthinking? I no longer have any interest in getting intimate but just go along with it whenever he initiates in hopes it might make him like me even a little and start seeing me a human with valid feelings. Am I just emotional? This is normal after so long living together? Is it wrong to feel my man should want to spend time with me and cuddle me and listen when I am talking about my day? I am so confused, Talking wont work because in his mind he is already doing everything he should and he cant cater to my emotional needs all the time (I only ask him to do something together on any Saturday or Sunday, just one day a few hours a week). I am so lost and sometimes I wish I have someone to talk to, i don't even feel like sharing anything with him anymore. I dont know what I am expecting by posting here, I am cursed I guess