Many people are wondering about this. All anybody can speculate about, really. Will Mindless_Patient2034 be the protagonist? Todd has been shockingly silent on the topic thus far, and many many people are wondering why.
Recipient, got my(25m) new kidney on 12/06/22 (mm/dd/yy) from my mom. This is more of a rant than anything else. It’s kind of bizarre, but I swear it feels like I am only getting more and more frustrated as time goes on. I’m more upset about the entire situation than I even was on dialysis. For reference, my kidneys failed ~Halloween 2021.
When I was on dialysis I remained relatively jovial on account of having tunnel vision towards my transplant. Once I had the transplant I picked up a gambling addiction. Long story, don’t want to talk about it. Stopped gambling July of last year, and now it’s like it’s all hitting me at once.
The medication, the borderline hypochondria, the constant worrying about diet, exercise, etc. I gambled to escape my thoughts and worries, and now I have a steady job, steady income, everything should be peaceful. But I feel worse mentally than ever.
The only person that I can even talk to about this is my mom, and she’ll hear me out but at a certain point she’ll always say as nicely as possible that I need to get over it. I can’t really say anything because she gave me the kidney. I agree with her but I just can’t.
I can’t tell you how much I used to say to other people something along the lines of “if I’d been born 100+ years ago I would have died at 20!” With the implication that I was grateful for everything. And don’t get me wrong, I know I should be. But I don’t feel grateful. I just feel angry. I don’t earnestly wonder “why me?”, like I get that shit happens, but I am incredibly annoyed that it is me.
Anyway. Just wondering if anyone else can relate today? I’m sure all of us have had negative feelings towards this, but I guess I’m wondering if anyone else has felt worse years later like me.
I need it, I need it, I need it right now. I need it right now. So don’t let me, don’t let me, don’t let me down, Todd.
Todd I yearn.
Todd I beg.
plllEEAAASSSEEEEEE.
Todd? Can you hear me? Are you reading? Todd we KNOW you peruse Reddit. Todd PLEASE PLEASE MAN PLEASE!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHH.
AHHH.
Todd. You don’t want to see me when I’m angry. Hand it over. I just want to see!!! Just for a second!!!
TOODDDDDDDDDDDDD.
I’m going insane! Insane in the membrane!
And there’s only one fix!
AND YOU HAVE IT TODD!!!!!
GIMME!!
AHHHHHHHH
I’m sure many of you have felt the same. I’m 25m. To give a little context, I work at a bank in central Florida. I moved here 8 months ago. Feel like I got lucky to even get a job after 2 months of searching. The company itself is completely fine, but I just absolutely hate my coworkers. It’s gotten to the point where I can’t enjoy life outside of work because I’m just constantly dreading going back. Just this past week I took a week of PTO and couldn’t calm down until Tuesday, and now here I am again dreading the fact that I have to go in on Monday.
It should also be noted that I didn’t want to live in central Florida in the first place. I got quasi-kicked out of my parents house at 24 for a “fresh start” to go live with my sister across the country. I started living with my parents after my kidneys failed suddenly at 20, previously I had been attending college in North Dakota. I don’t think I ever really fully recovered from the kidney failure honestly.
This all culminates in me feeling like I haven’t had control over my life for 5 years. I’m extremely moody, which I never was before this job. I have days long periods of feeling empty. The only thing keeping me going is some idea that I can someday just up and move, but I have no degree. I don’t know where I even want to move to really. I’ve thought a lot about Sacramento because I love Northern California but I can’t afford it. My job experience is entirely in the restaurant industry for 6 years and now as a teller for 6 months, but I’m not even sure if that would be worth putting on a resume.
I would like to go back to school but I don’t know what degree I would go back for. On top of all of this the job market is completely shit and I just went through that whole rigamarole 6 months ago.
I also am not particularly good at putting myself out there to make friends since the kidney stuff. I swear it’s like that changed my whole personality. I’m just a nervous person now, and I have some sort of social anxiety now. My hobbies include playing video games, reading books and watching sports.
Has anyone done this, especially as someone young and recently? What does it look like practically?
Sorry if this is a FAQ, just curious about thoughts or advice for my situation.
I started working at a bank in Oct of last year as a teller. I met a guy from our IT department at a bank sponsored event a few weeks back. He mentioned that if I wanted to get into the field he could reach out and get me involved. The guy who was a teller before me went to IT a year after he started working at my current job. I communicated that I was interested. The bank has pretty incredible upward mobility like this, I must admit. And I am genuinely interested in the field. I plan on following up this week.
The only thing I’m worrying about is that I have no professional experience with computers. I don’t have a college degree at all. I have personal experience, but to say I’m super knowledgeable would be incorrect. I have had a PC since I was 6, and built my own PC with a bunch of help a few years ago. I usually just use it to game or internet browse. I’m pretty smart and interested enough to where I think I would do well, I’m just not entirely sure what it entails, and I’m nervous I’ll look incompetent when I get there.
Are there some basics that would be useful to learn before getting started? Are there some tutorials or even certifications I can get started on my own?
I’m 25m. Turned 25 yesterday in fact. This is something I’ve wondered about, or maybe worried about for years and years. I have never been ambitious. Not once in my entire life did I consider myself to be ambitious. I stopped doing homework in 7th grade. Skated by on Bs and Cs. Went to college and skated by up until my kidneys failed at 20. The lack of ambition has really started to become more apparent the last few years. I never went back to college. Worked as a waiter from the age of 17 to 24 on and off. I now work as a teller at a bank. I absolutely hate it. I don’t see a future in it at all.
So to get to the point, I’m at a place where I’m worried about never becoming “successful”, but also question whether I even truly want that. I suppose I would enjoy being successful, but it’s not something I’m motivated by in any practical way. I’ve never really wanted a fancy car or a big house, but I’m also aware of how bleak and depressing it is to be stuck in a job you hate and being behind on bills. The other thing though is I know some successful people and it seems like the majority of them are pretty much always working or always on call, and that concept seems to be more scary than anything else.
I’ll see posts on occasion about how your 20s should be for taking risks, being uncomfortable, etc. But even if I can logically agree that those things are beneficial for long-term success, I just can’t really be bothered. It’s a little difficult for me to even picture the end goal of the hard work. Maybe if there was a career path I was just overwhelmingly passionate about, but I’ve never really been drawn to anything. I don’t know. I’m not opposed to capitalism or anything but I’m not really bought in to the system either if that makes sense.
The really unfortunate part is that I also worry about this all the time. My biggest motivation in being successful might be the relief from the constant worrying.
I don’t know. I’m tired now, I guess I’m just throwing this out there in the hopes that someone that might also be inherently unambitious can relate and give me any possible advice. Thanks
Not sure what to flair this one, but I was at the game last night. I know people have pointed this out, but there were quite a few empty seats last night. The last time I went to a playoff game here was 2023, and I don’t remember this happening. Also it was just not particularly loud? At least not for a playoff game. The crowd pops for the 3 goals were great but other than that it felt a bit constrained. Is it a pricing issue? Is it because it was Monday? It’s honestly a little embarrassing in my opinion.