u/Miss-Worm

I used to be a fan of BTD games and was up to date with every post on her Tumblr. Then I realized the blog had disappeared, but I didn't think much about it. As of now, I see she only has Patreon and Youtube. Is there any other platform she posts on or did she abandon social media in general?

I of course understand if this gets removed, I just don't really know where to talk about it with like-minded people (which I believe are on this sub). I suppose TMI but nothing graphic included.

I am pretty sure I went through all the sexuality labels when I was young. Stopped this completely after I realized no-label makes me feel the best. When someone asks now I tell I am straight because I am with a guy. Together 6 years, communication good, we tried working through this stuff. The first 3,5 years of getting it on were confusing, like I was kinda into it but also not really, often felt bad. Then there was a brief period of being stable (great sex!) then I got hypersexual during my mania (awful sex!) and now I have been feeling repulsed for the past 1,5 yo. I can't stand the idea of any PiV my mind screams gross gross gross. Bf is very LL so that makes the relationship work. Also my friend made me realize I have never felt horny when with someone else (when I am alone it's fine and dandy), but when with someone there are no butterflies (euphemism).

Can you maybe share your experiences? I am not too bummed about it tbh I quite like my current state, i just sometimes feel like a dipshit in regards to my bf because i kinda fake the enthusiasm and its a chore.

Hello, I am 26f from Europe :) I roleplayed for a better chunk of my life, albeit with someone I knew IRL. I had no idea there was a whole space dedicated to that. Right now, with summer rolling in, I'd like to try something "newish" and see if I would enjoy it. That's why I emphasized short-term roleplay (like a cohesive story), since I don't want to waste anyone's time if it turns out I am not in for the long game.

My requirements: someone who is literate & can give out proper responses; clear communication style (which means we are polite towards each other and can point out our likes & dislikes). Both OC x OC and fandom RPs (I am in fandoms such as Supernatural, Resident Evil, Call of Duty, Outlast, and others. Hit me up and see if we like the same thing).

Please be older than 20 yo.

TMI but I am keeping it tame and clinical.

I am a person with a very low libido + a lil bit sex repulsed. I do like to masturbate though, but I noticed I can't overdo it since I may spiral. Which mostly display itself by doing it multiple times a day, my thoughts are getting all over the place and I start to act very erratic. If I don't cut it at the source, I risk being hypomaniac. Plus, that's how my mania episode started, by engaging with sexual content, just diving head first into it. I always feel very bad about it, sometimes even during the episode.

I feel kinda crazy when I look through my poems/diary from a few years back. All I talked about was the emptiness, apathy and walking around with a gaping hole in my chest. I still feel it but at this point it's well. It's my gaping hole. It's gonna stay.

I am an university lecturer. I love and hate my job. Love, because it doesn't burden me with the usual uselessness of a labor on a personal level. And it's probably the only job where I can talk about literature and earn a living. I am not fit for working in general. I am good at it, burned through many retail jobs - always was the model employee because I do what I'm told and do it well. But fuck, I hate working. Showing up there every day. Performing. Having to pretend I care. Doing the hierarchy. I just can't wrap my head around some social expectations.

And I hate my current job because it requires so much masking. It's exhausting, going out and being this bubbly person. There is an element of authenticity to it, but it's still draining. Being perceived by my students and coworkers fills me with so much dread. Suddenly around 200 people recognize me! When people ask me what I'm doing I never say "lecturer" because I hate the instant attention. Instead I mumble something about being a teacher at private school, my other job. I also avoid the subject of my job because that also attracts instant attention. I am good at teaching and I love the flexibility but I can feel it's yet another job that I burned through.

I hate the job that grants me anonimity because I am unable to push through social conventions full time. I can't handle the job that strips me of anonimity even despite amazing perks. And I can't be picky, I am not a wealthy person.

Also I have bipolar which overall makes me not-so-funcitoning member of society and commiting to things long term is a challenge because my brain is stretched to its limits.

I just wish I could exist in a void lol

I am looking for a book (or rather a passage from a book) that talked about how the social taboos regarding human body are all connected to the holes...I don't remember much from it and nobody knows what I'm talking about so I am giving my shot here 😢

I got diagnosed a few months ago. Got on two sets of medications: one for mood swings, one antidepressants. Gotta thank the episode I had last summer and almost completely derailed my life. At least something good came out of it.

I was stable for a month or so after taking meds. Then I started to get hypo and got off antidepressants...and now the depression is starting. I have a lot of obligations coming up and I! Won't! Let! This! Win! Fucking fuckass condition. I have shitton stuff to do and I WILL do them. I will.

There are those big chunks of my life missing. Month after month wasted. I need to either fight or write myself out of it. But fighting is a lifetime's work.

Either way, I am going to work this out and I'm going to have a normal, relatively stable, lovely summer. Breath in breath out. For now I am trying my best to stick to the routine.