Anyone else feel like their trip is much more intense if they are also sick? I had a cold about a year ago and ended up unable to move. Last week i had a sinus infection and I had such a strong trip i ended up bawling my eyes out and it was so intense. I have a few more similar stories. I only get big reactions like that when im sick. Anyone else go through something similar?
I feel like i had the drive to quit and I really wanted to for a few months. I was putting in the effort and trying my best, until I just gave up.
I lost the drive, im back to smoking constantly. I feel like I have failed, but the happiness weed gives me makes me not care. Maybe ill be ready next time the drive to quit comes back..? : (
After a little over a year I finally quit. The last two weeks were j credibly bad and I just couldnt do it anymore. Had to clean human shit out of an aisle. The assistant store manager had been cursing me out and calling me names, over very small things.
One day I was a stupid bitch for getting her too early for the red bull vendor. He told me he needed someone, then went to his truck to get product. I got her while he was getting product and since he wasnt immediately ready for her, im a stupid bitch and I need to get her 'when hes fucking ready for me'
She called me a loud mouth and told me to stfu in front of customers at one point.
This last time that did it was because my disabled son needed me to get him from daycare. He was having a very bad day and is still in diapers, he would not let anyone change him and was sitting in his feces. He is a 100lbs autistic 6 year old. If he doesnt want to do something its nesr impossible to get him to. I needed tk get him home and change him. I understand this can be frustrating from a bosses point of view, but my son has to come first. She told me to get the fuck out, that I was going to lose my job, and went on about how she was suppose to leave earlier. I get the frustration, but thats why im not a manager. She took that position knowing it meant long days. Im trying to have some sympathy for her because we are all getting fucked over by dg, but I cant handle it anymore. I needed out.
On fresh truck day I got a message basically begging me to come back, saying she felt so bad and cried over making someone quit because of how she treated them. Im not dumb though, I know shes just upset instead of me running from register to the truck, she has to do it now. So done with that place.
Im in the process of starting to get SSI for my son but we have months ahead of us.
Wish us luck.
I did what I thought was impossible. I quit 4 years ago and I havent looked back since. If youre struggling right now, I promise there is an end to the tunnel and it does get better. Youve got this.
Ive noticed a lot of people say to avoid all screens during the majority of treatment. I guess I want to hear why. I bring my occulus and watch trippy visuals or music videos. Ive noticed I genuinely feel like im floating 'flying' through whatever im watching. It feels wonderful and I love it. I bring my occulis to every treatment now.
Editing to add: i am autistic, I think the visual stimulus helps me regulate the odd sensory things going on during spravato. I get everything I need from treatments, and I was pulled out of a depression, and was able to leave my abuser. Spravato is still very beneficial, regardless of using screens during treatment.
Can I hear from others why they prefer not to use screens?