u/Mobile-Discussion572

Hey,
I’m stuck in confusion if I want kids or not…. I’m not able to decide… well it feels really amazing when you play with new born kids see them grow and feel like you also want one….
But then I got a question that this is a phase of the kids life.
Do parents still feel the same excitement around logs when they grow up ?
Or how does parenting change when they grow up ??

Me and my gf are dating since 3 years. The initial first year we used to go out a lot spend time together make efforts gifts… I understand that is the honeymoon period but slowly it turned out I used always initiate to go out or do something together and I always get a No in return…
I used to tell her that you feel bad she promised to she would start spending time but then it’s all the same again….

I think somewhere in between this I stopped asking for anything… I just assume by default that she doesn’t want to do or come out…

There is also no physical intimacy between us (no kisses or hugs or cuddles also)
I used to be the one who always initiate and then I hear a No and then I just give up… I started feeling in between something is wrong with me…. Or she isn’t attracted to me….
It used to hurt me but then eventually I stopped asking….. I do feel physical intimacy is my love langue….

She is a great person she is supportive and all even in trouble or stress but then other time I feel like we are just co-existing but there is nothing….
I feel I’m always out of love at this point… Is that true ?? I don’t know how to navigate this situation…

Talking to her is just the same cycle of yes and then no later on….