u/Mofo013102

Hello, I’ve dealt with retrolisthesis for 2 1/2 years, and inner knee pain for abt 1 1/2 years.

I finally found the most amazing girlfriend in the world she’s literally perfect.

Unfortunately bc of these issues I can’t pursue my dream career and she knows that but somehow still believes one day I can? And I’m afraid to lose her bc I can’t provide for her fully. And she has options that can.

Not only that but extreme anxiety over what if I’m finally happy and in love and can see a future here, and my low back or knees get so bad that I can’t even enjoy my love for her …

Where were you physically before PT and where are you after?

In so few replies, I was grounded again in reality. Even though I have plenty worries and doubts, I just have to trust myself and trust her that she will make the right decision to AVOID temptation from all her options.

She chose me. And for now, I need to enjoy that and live in the moment and be happy. Clearly, her having options that make 3x more money than I. And a more masculine career . Doesn’t mean I’m no one and not worth it.

I trust her that she’ll always realize that like she does today. I trust that her and I will find a way to work things out, but most importantly I have to find a way to bring things up without coming off like I don’t trust her or trust myself

Thank you everyone, I don’t have any friends , at all , so you guys are my friends

24M - I’m scared of self sabotage

I want to tell her thank you for choosing me to love, and for choosing me to love her back despite me not having much to offer compared to all the other men that want her.

It makes zero sense to me that she would choose less or at least says she will be with me even though I’m less bc I offer so much more than money and things money can’t buy.

Even though to me as a man I feel like less bc my job or uniform isn’t as cool as theirs, and my income is 3x less of theirs …

Currently crying bc no matter what she says I will never feel like enough and even though she clearly loves me I’ll always feel insecure when the other men try to date her bc they offer a lot more than I can from a material perspective…. Which DOES matter ..

24M

I always choose the person in the messed up relationship or the person who needs to be healed , or has been thru a lot, or has trust issues. And here I come trying to show them true love still exist bc all I want is real love and companionship and all that beautiful stuff. I have no idea why I always end up in these situations

Does anyone feel good running , squatting body weight or doing somewhat vigorous exercise? How did you get to that point?

I can go on forever about how this girl loves and communicates, and is so vulnerable and allows me to be vulnerable and ask me for reassurance when she needs it.

She’s been hurt and gas lit her whole life and has never felt safe enough to express all her love and she does for me.

My main goal is don’t self sabotage and hope for the best. I was single for 4 years bc I was afraid of getting hurt again and we live in a hook up culture and everyone’s so non chalant. I found someone who loves to show affection and loves physical touch.

I have 2 major issues to work on. I have herniated disc in my low back and I’m always afraid I’ll end up in so much pain that I can’t do much. Bc some days are very hard.

I have varicoceles (varicose veins in balls) and ever since I got the pain and found out about them I feel like my errections arent as strong and I struggled with performance anxiety since I was 18 anyway.

So I took blue chew like 8x sometimes in halves sometimes full , bc this girl loves penetration and loves sex and it’s her #1 thing in a relationship. And as of the last week or so idk what’s happened but I feel like I don’t get as strong of an erection nor often … soooo I’m having mad anxiety bc imagine as a man you get left bc of your dick pre varicocle me got anxiety but at least I was always ready to go

Thanks for reading everyone