u/Monochrome_700

I was listening to music on YouTube and I came across a song that I listened to this winter during a VERY difficult time for me. Thirty seconds later, I had a tantrum with crying out loud for half an hour. How do I deal with this? Can I make myself to not have this kind of reaction? Honestly, I'm scared and confused.

So, i have reccurent depressive disorder and i'm on lamictal, cipralex and quetiapine. Before escitalopram i've been stuck in mild derpession and before lamictal in severe depression with crazy mood swings and with strong suicidal ideation. In half a year i went from miserable fuck to an actually pretty happy guy, and i even got myself a boyfriend recently. Stick with medication and be happy bros.

I'm taking lamictal, seroquel and started lexapro recently for my reccurent depressive disorder. I had thoughts of sticking a pen in my eye or a knife in my hand, but before lexapro there was this inner resistance, like you try to touch red-hot metal but can't, because it's dangerous and now this resistance is gone. I striked my hand with pen a few times yesterday, it's not that bad, I think I can control myself to an extent, but I'm just curious how long this side effect is going to last.