Could librafeminine be the one?
I'm 28, and I've been unsure about gender for quite some time. I've been exploring a few labels recently. Bigender, genderflux, demigirl. Nothing seemed 100%. But I just came across librafeminine... and I think it might be the one.
Basically I'm a woman and I'm agender, but my agenderness comes from spirituality. I'm a nondualist, so I believe separation is an illusion (everything is an illusion, for that matter), everything is one, and that oneness is obviously genderless because everything is an illusion.
So, given that, I feel that my truth is agender. But I am very much living in this material illusion, I am currently perceiving through the lens of human experience... so, at the same time, I feel connected to my womanhood. I love my womanhood, it feels so real to me yet I recognise that it's not and I'm agender.
I realise my reason for feeling agender is perhaps a bit unusual. For that reason, maybe there isn't an existing label that is 100% right. I don't like just saying "non-binary" because that makes people see neither my womaness nor my agenderness; they see me as a third gender or they see me as somewhere between a man and a woman, which obviously isn't right (I know this comes from a misunderstanding of non-binary and that non-binary actually means anything that's not 100% man or 100% woman 100% of the time, but it's their perception nonetheless).
While my reasons for feeling agender are potentially rare (idk, does anyone else feel agender for a similar reason?), it seems to me that librafeminine is the closest existing label. I think I might feel more connected to womanhood compared to some librafeminine people in terms of percentages (honestly it's hard to put a percentage on it. It's just both. Maybe it fluctuates, maybe it doesn't), but that connection comes with the feeling that it's an illusion and that agender is my truth. I should note that identifying as agender alone doesn't quite work for me because that connection to womanhood is very much there, even if I believe it to be an illusion.
What do you think?